Opps forgot to share with You guys..

Above: Some Pictures i got from Big K. (Khairul Anuar) * Thank Q* On The Left Big k n Yazer n Ekin, Right.. Biasa Marsha.. Hehe She look Cute there~ *Sniff Sniff* He took this pictures while he was at the ICC err Remah mesra with AF3 kali.. inda ingat... Ok Guys C Ya

Someday I Will Regret it too

Nah~ Saja Kan Post picture my LiL sis n My Brother Yg baru saja Pelanting Ke Uk last Tuesday.. Muah muah.. Oyeah aku nie kan tidur.. But I promise perempuan anie wah.. So here Goes.. Ready Yush!! A... B... C...

I lYKE YUSH!!! From the Bottom of my Broken Heart haha Out~..

LoL.. Puas hati Yush~ want me to post ur piCture jua kah hehe..

eh turun saham ku nie eh.. kalau si pheweet tahu eh.. oh well haha.. apakan.. heng eh.. inda tia ikhlas bunyi nya haha.. opps~ well as yush post on her blog.. she lyke her frens.. i lyke my frens too.. kalat mata ku tia.. nyamu.. i wish i cant write more.. tak apalah.. tulis sikit lah

Few days nie.. angin taufan malanda jiwa ku..but now alhamdulilah redha udah.. gud gud.. confess everything.. nyaman jua hati nie.. mcm lagu bertahta di hati.. hehe. I downloads some songs mostly Haley's songs.. err.. im so blank eh subuh nie.. oyeah i bought a new cover for my mob..and also a keypad sal yg dulu tu hancur berabis udah.. tangal menangal pulak memulak udah.. emm.. errr.. i download few softwares.. di antara nya Fruity Loops and Adobe Audition.. siapa kan jadi composer or penyanyi download tah oleh kamu.. both software.. emm.. around 90~mb kali.. took me 2 days to download it.. maklum Brunet.. I send my Songs to Ling haha well kami punya project buat lirik "I choose to love you in silence for in silence i found no rejection"

There are few songs that really touch my heart. err i mean theres a meaning to my life..

Below are the list..

1) No more Drama- Mary J. Blige

2) Berhenti Berharap- SO7

3) Pulangkan, Tiada aku mengerti-Misha Omar

4) Awan yg terpilu, Erti Pertemuan - Ning Baizura

5) Welcome to My life- Simple Plan

6) Dari Hati - Club 80s

7) Through With Love- Destinys Child

8) Elsewhere, When the stars go Blue, Dont Walk Away - Haley (Bethany Joy Lenz)

9) Wake me Up when September Ends - GreenDay

10) Run- Light house Family etc

11) Someday i Will Understand- Britney Spears

When will i be satisfied with my choice.. my act and the decisions ive made?

In the End I will regret it too..

Bah kan mimpi ku lagi..

Let the Almighty Decide for me

I was about to post sumthin yesterday.. but ill just save it as a draft.. its too detail bout me and sumone.. i just dont feel like to share with you guys.. its very long.. spend 3hrs to finished that post.. emm.. I cant really study for the past three days.. my mood sucks.. ive been thinking bout this frenship with sumone.. bout 9 mnths i lefted it behind.. and about 9 mnths i started a new life and now its comming back.. its not my ego preventing me to giv him a chance.. its the pain that i suffered last year alone all by myself.. when you u have a fren.. which u think more than a fren and more than a bestfren.. like you take him as part of your family.. and suddenly he betrayed you.. How would you feel? how would you take it? How do you feel when you think his the one who you really trust and expect him to be next to you supporting you.. but unfortunately he was supporting ur enemy..? You tried to make him listen to you unfortunately he asked u pulang to listen to ur enemy and lefted you behind when you reealy need a support?

My last post i did mention "Learn to Forgive n Forget" well it applies here.. i forgive but i cant forget.. maybe i need more time to forget.. im ashamed to admit that im scared to get hurt thats why i decided to leave the world of brotherhood behind. and im ashamed to admit that im one of the human being who likes to runaway from poblems rather than facing it..

I just want to post this stuff coz i dont like keeping it by myself anymore.. i dont really share personal stuff with my BestFrens.. I just want you guys to think.. is it worth to go back and act as if nothing had happend in the past? is it worth again when you give so much luv and care in past n took him as your family but in the end he betrayed you...? is it worth for all those pain i suffered alone last and expect ur so called brother to be your hero..? and in the end you knoe that the frenship was just an new n odinary frenship. Is it my mistake? Its easy for me to make a fren with my enemy and to forget about the war we had. But a fren that you took him as part of your family, your brother suddenly betrayed you.. how can i forget that? Last but not least.. I love my past but is it worth it?

Almighty.. Please Give Me Strength

Someday I will understand too..

Al-Fati'ah

To Hj Md NoorAzme's Father

Who Passed Away Last Tuesday

(12.09.05)

(Thankx to Peko aka Nuaro n Azamudin to inform me that)

Helo Everyone.. I just wana say Thank Q for reading..I just realized tonight that.. its not easy to say thank Q to sumone.. i found it hard for some people to say thank Q to me after i did to them aka helping them or seeing sumone to say Thank Q to my frens after wat my frens did to him/her.. Thats life.. We cant control the world.. People said "learn to forgive and to forget" sound easy.. for me I learned to forgive but i cant promise to forget.. Sweet memories is easy to remember.. Sad or bad memories aint so easy to forget.. People can easily say wat they can do.. but can they really do it?? All that glitter may not be gold.. That which look warm are often cold.. Theres a little answer for the whole bunch of question out there.. some questions remains with no answer.. Everyday is another adventure to descover the mystery of life..

This Year I learned to apreaciated my frens more than i used to.. KillerAngel, Leto, Zawaw, Minul n Salam.. i usually hangout with them nowadays.. Taking example of KillerAngel shes a great person.. she often kindly say thank Q everytime i send her an emoticon.. even one emoticon.. she wont forget to say Thank Q.. Zawawi.. sumtime he make me laugh.. every simple thing that i help for him.. like.. picking up his paper.. he will say thank Q.. sumtime i feel akward everytime he said thank Q he wont say it once but an avrage of minimum of two times saying thank Q.. To be honest with you guys.. im lucky to be his fren. Same with Leto, Minul n Salam.. they too like to say "Thank Q"

So many examples I want to give.. but im just scared i would make u people out there falls asleep lah! We made mistakes in our past.. Do we really learned from our mistakes? maybe.. maybe not.. Some people ask u to change.. but do we really need to change?? people said change for the better.. but people who tend to giv u the advise are the people who have the same negative atitude too.. sigh.. Thats why true frens wont ask you to change but they help you to improve your daily life.. You may critics or complain sumone.. but remember.. look yourself through the mirror.. before you critics on sumone.. KillerAngel used to say to me.. "Count 10 before you speak" thats mean you think before you talk lah!!

People change.. Our frens change *Dont be silly~ I dont mean the height or the hair colour or wat". Wat i mean is their atitude.. Sumtime i miss the person who he/she used to be. One reason why people cant stay frens is they change i mean we change.. last year or last month you were with him.. but now ur with sumone else.. im not saying general frens.. wat i mean is your close frens.. We used to be So close but now we are apart.. we choose to hang out with sumone else now is becoz we cant stand his/her atitude or we r just scared to get hurr again by them. Some people we forgive.. some people we dont.. "If you can forgive him.. why cant u forgive him or her.. " well its depend on wat he or she did to you.. small misunderstood are easy to forget n to forgive.. but big one you just need to do somthing hard for him/her to gain their forgivness. Next year each of us will have a new enviroment.. yeah.. sumone of us will go overseas hmm.. its look like we dont hav much time for each other like we used to .. our laugh, our cry, our work together is left behind in our past which become our history together.. Tomorow will not be the same as today.. Believe in Karma.. this life.. Believe in Fate.. Coz all of us will die too..

Some Frens are nice to you when they need you. but when they dont.. KabOonmm meletup!! dont expect nice from him/her. sometimes i do feel like a machine.. they only need me when they need my help? is it wrong..i used to think its wrong but now i dont thnk so.. yeah i do feel akward or sad bout it.. but i luv helping my frens sincerly.. i just hope they apreaciate wat i hav helped them.. I dun mind if they say thank Q or not.. but i wish they will say thank Q *im not asking*.. saying thank q to sumone can be a big different.. people attend to help you again when ever you say thank Q.

I wanted to to share more wit u guys.. but i feel so lazy to continue.. I hope you apreaciate ur frens more.. Its better to have a lot of close frens than one.. Dont expect anything from sumone. I used to expect alot from someone.. but in the end.. im the one who suffered. I used too care someone very much and hoped for a return.. but it never returned. I Used to love someone very much but now i dont know how to love anymore. Last but not least.. be urself and dont be a fake.. coz i really hate fake.. i may have a conversation with fake people again.. but trust me i dont beleive them anymore.. WalidFreak ia a gud actor too.. =) Lieing to sumone is a sin.. lieing to yourself is an idiot.. do want to be an idiot?? Speak the truth n dont be a fake.

Im Just Like A Machine.. People Only Want Me When They Need Me.. Sigh..

Helo Guys.. like my New skin?? well it took me four days to finished it.. i really love onetreehill sal aku suka liat lah.. i adore Haley.. muah muah.. I just like her.. her smile.. her look.. dont knoe why?? suka hati ku lah aku suka ia.. haha atu out~ joking~ hope all of you out there is having a great day.. I just want to update my blog.. idont want my blog to be Dead~ BTW "HAPPY HOLIDAYS" for Brunei Students.. Olright where should i begin..

Hari Rabu bisai..

On wednesday [07.09.05] I was absent from school.. hehe.. overslept duh~ dont blame me. =) Blame!! My mobile a.k.a my Alarm Clock.. habis battry ah.. haha well my dad did actually wake me up.. but.. but.. my body n mind.. was very malas so.. inda tah ku sekulah.. [end]

Hari Khamis.. duh great day? emm not really guess Wat!! 5 periods {7:30am to 2.00pm} No class!! a.k.a No Belajar!! wondefull kan? kan? If yes you must be crazy.. Wat did i do to fill my time.. emm.. Belajar kali atu saja kali.. selain belajar cerita jalan jalan.. i really like part time sama KillerAngel a.k.a Miss See time di conference room.. Siok eh.. there was 5 of us.. Hazeem a.k.a Jimbo was writing his exams. While Miss See, Me N Miss Janitan.. hope its correct.. (forgive me if im wrong =) ) Oh well i lyke her coz shes Nice like KillerAngel too.. Wait All Killer Angel Frens sorry geng are nice.. We r like bluffing with Cikgu Azmi.. bout sumthin.. which has sumthin to do with Killerangel lah.. its sumthin gud.. nothing bad here.. The funny thing is he really Swalowed it. I think.. hahaha i really like it~ muah muah.. cali lah..menahan ketewa saja ku wah.. then judeen n the others minta permission kan keluar sekulah.. emm.. i didnt take permision malas. haha Escape saja tia.. i knoe haram.. but.. i dont knoe why? its inside me.. cant help it LoL

So me a.k.a walid, Shafiq1887 n Khai ikut judeen bawa kami tempat makan yg bernama Mamih.. just near wah.. @ kg Kiulapzzz.. While pangiz a.k.a Faiz brought Azrul and Razy.. So berkumpul lah kami di tempat yg bernama Mamih.. so we order lah.. then Salam datang.. bawa-ing si JIMBO!! haha siok eh sama si Jimbo nie.. boleh jadi giler.. lah.. wat i meant by giler is not giler like wad 5.. its better than that.. nadalah giler in gud ways lah.. better to explain.. in detail.. sum people misunderstood karang.. u knoe.. Devil is everyway wah..

After makan.. Azizi n the geng {Hamdi, Toh n Ismail} baru sampai so durang pun makan lah. While the rest of us.. was usher by Pangiz.. kan main pool.. siok eh.. jalaning mencari tempat pool. unfortunately school uniform tak kena suruh play play~

So we went to sumwhere called Sweet n Spicy.. *jimbo n salam balik* sal ada kedai pool sana .. inda jua jauh lah.. sumwhere in kiulap too.. Toing~ tempat sedurang kan main pool nie.. nauzibilah.. bau nya~ wosh! pure smoking area.. since i love my lungs, my life.. i decided to go out.. thankx to Zudeen to company me outside.. so we had little chit chat lah.. arah kedai Sweet n Spicy.. after that kami pun balik.. k sekulah lah..

1:30pm we went to I.C.C to visit the I.T thingi.. zip zip kaboom!! sampai sana.. We went arah pemeran nya ah.. awal awal.. nothing seems to attracted us.. so Zawawi, Judeen and aku. membuat pusingan pertama.. then i decided toregister Royal skies.. so this guy asked me weather i want to register online or paper.. ONLINE lah~ so i register lah. akhir sekali.. lepas selesai ku register tu.. aku dapat cute permain.. a model of Royal Brunei Airline.. aeroplane lah.. Cute eh.. so cute..

Jalan Jalan lagi sana sini.. to sumarized it.. I like the M.O Religious Affair.. the people are SOOOOOO FRIENDLY.. giler!! siok nie wah.. i giv it 9 over 10.. yg satu hilang tu.. i saved it to me.. sal inda boleh membazir bagi marks arah urang nie.. i went to the Baiduri Babkk booth, The I.B. Bank.. the women yg melayan kami is nice.. we also visited the AiTi booth sumthin to do with Authority for info-communications technolgy industry of Brunei Draussalam. We visited the Fujitsu Laptops.. from singapore which is REAALY gud.. cangih.. the women yg layan kami pun boleh tahan.. chinese.. which is lawa.. if im rich. i'll buy one of their laptop. Insyaallah.. oh aku sunguh sedih how the DSTcom layan kami.. so not frendly.. no offense but.. the person yg layan kami hari atu.. tak sesuai.. i believe there is some people at DSTcom yg polite n Nice.. yg lebih Sesuai.. hmm the last booth is JTB haha siok eh.. i also got a free gift jua.. for registering the brunet online bill.

3:30 we went back to school.. btw our bus driver yg bawa kami lagi rock..

Hari Sabtu.. ada extra claz Biolgy.. 1st me datang then judeen then pangiz then si azrul then si Al-Hadi.. tahtu ada salam datang kami buat joke arah nya.. i cant really describe it.. but it was funny.. so we had our Bio Extra claz for two hrs.. from 8-10.. the me and judeen k supersave mabohai n have our lunch tahtu ke I.C.C..

We only visited a few saja lagi.. since we visited a quite a lot last thursday.. the one yg ku intrested is from the HAD technolgy booth.. where they provide I.T training.. they teach alot about IT. example Making Website, Pictures using Adobe photoshop.. etc.. but.. yg sedih nya.. ada murah.. but untuk kanak..yg basic but the real course.. mahal.. can reach to $200-$400 muah muah.. usin nyamu.. then balik..

Kelamarin, Hari Isnin

Me, Judee, Zawawi n Rashidah.. Belajar.. Bio.. arah Dewan Bahasa.. I met sumone mother there.. oh shes frendly.. ia tegur judeen.. i got to knoe her too.. Rashidah is my old old Frens.. from SMSAB.. i knoe.. im getting old too.. hehe judeen knoe Rashidah from steps center.. err.. belajar lah kami.. n berborak borak.. ok bye.. i want to sleep now.. bye n CYA

Just Wana Say Happy Bufday To

Alif.. Leef a.k.a Kiddo

May Allah Bless You n Bless us All =)

I choose to love you in silence.. For in slience i found no rejection.. by Shaymar

WalidFreak's Desktop

Hai.. its been like ages i havent updated my blog.. Bloging used to be my daily job.. but now.. for the past two months.. im a bit lazy.. [geting rusty.. sigh] hmm.. so many stuff i wanted to share with you guys out there.. wats below.. is just a small stuff i did the past weeks.. I share my past at my own risk.. hehehe apakan..

Exams lasted last wednesday.. guess wat.. me, judeen and minul.. 12-noon terus liat movie wah.. Herbie.. n guess wat again.. only three of us.. in the cinema.. which is Gud... really really gud.. it felt like as if your at your own house or your fren's house watching movie.. so relaxing wah.. The movie was ok.. Lindsay lohan.. dah kurus dah~ no comment..

After that.. emm.. Judeen n minul balik.. Then.. I met my classic frens.. Alina and mona.. err.. i met Dee, Nas, Mas, Yuz n Hj azmie.. then err.. join my family.. becoz.. i promised my bro to join him to buy his laptop.. since ada Computer Exhibition arah da mall..

How sad.. he wanted to buy NEC but inda lawa.. I sugested him Acer.. but he dont want too big n to heavy... he wanted to buy CompaQ presario but i totally disagree because its not that lawa.. no offense.. Oyeah.. he was damn confuse.. so we just left the computer exhibition n decided to go shoping baju..

Then at 5pm we left the gadong and head to Kiulap.. to visit kedai computer.. which authorise on Acer computer.. cant remember the shop name.. but its next to a pakistan restoran.. gosh these young gurl.. well she look young.. really handal jualah.. oyeah btw if your searching for a wifi device.. its really cheap there.. then we ate at this Pakistan Restoran.. so nyaman.. i felt like i was in pakistan.. haha Joking wah.. lolwell the food was great.. n cheap too.. Around six we went to Bestseller (Netzone). hmm.. My bro n I love this shop.. we bought our 1st computer.. which is this computer im using right now.. which i called "My Pentium One" in 1997. oh well.. so we spend there like almost two hours.. err i knoe its sound crazy.. but i was having a great debate with my bro.. deciding which laptop is the best.. well we debated on two computers.. Twinhead n still the ugly Compaq.. no offense again. coz that model really tak lawa.. its so not lawa.. if you bring it to coffee bean.. im sure people look at you with that.. "nice look" seriously.. nightmare wah~ i dont hate it.. i just dont like it.. was the different?? one way or another.. i still dont want my bro to buy it =)

Hmm.. strange wah as if im the one whos going to buy the laptop.. haha.. Seriously i ask some of the saleman expertise there.. they even choose twinhead rather than compaq.. n Twinhead is much small and Cute.. hehe.. but seriously compaq has more advantage.. You knoe wat? guess wat? i win.. My bro agreed to buy Twinhead.. Woosh im gud.. well this is not the 1st time.. i drag my bro to buy sumthin.. =)

After that we went shoping at Yayasan Complex to buy his bag, rice cooker etc.. i was damn tired imagine from school till night *gosh i smell so gud* hehe i met Rashidah.. my smsab fren.. haha.. palui time ku jumpa ia. i was crying.. my eyes was pain wah. haha.. cala eh.. then i went hom arong 9 oclock.. atu terus mandi n tidur.. i just i ask my mum to store my PIZZA d Refigerator.. hehe..

Last sunday.. i formated my pentium one.. sigh i forgot that my Floppy drive wasnt working anymore.. toing~ u cant boot your computer witout a floopy disk n install back Windows.. haha.. sigh~ but nasib baik ada hero d rumah nie my bro.. after he fix the floppy drive.. im so gud to halau him.. haha i want to be alone with my pentium one lol.. the reason why i formated my computer is becoz my I.E stand for Internet Explorer is very slow.. (rupanya brunet connectioin yg lambat ah) from afternoon to night i ubah suai my computer.. finally it look lawa...i luv working with computers.. =)

As you can see above pictures thats my current desktop.. gee is hard to remove all your Icon on your desktop.. ecpecialy, My Computer, I.E, My Document and the Rubbish Bin.. oh well.. a gud application will do.. n this is my 1st time using Avast as my AntiVirus Program.. hope bagus.. oyeah like my wallpaper? Im luving my One Three Hill Wallpapers.. Especially Haley (Bethany) very much.. *Sniff sniff* (the red shirt with the blue jean) shes like gurl next door wah.. hehe.. dream gurl.. emm NOT!! coz ia inda makai tudung..

Hmm.. wat im thinking right now.. is im gonna missd my Bro.. 12 more days his going to leave us and gone to Newcastle for his Study for three years... I had never been very close to him.. despite sharing the same bedroom with him. But for the past weeks.. being his P.A angkat barang nya shoping sana sini.. it was fun jua lah..especialy deciding the laptop. We dont have common except both of us luv computers. beside that.. me n him totally different.. apatah lagi personality.. his quiet im loud.. his thin im fat hehe i knoe how to cook he dont.. hehe im taller than him.. haha.. the sad thing is he got a lot money than me.. haha..

but seriously his my brother.. of course im gonna miss him daa~ i luv him altho he wanted to kill me.. haha lol joking.. well his strict lah.. but when he leave this house.. im sure gonna renovate my room.. n my bro desktop computer in our bedroom will be mine!! mine!! haha pentium four i will take care of you~ haha lol.. but dont worry pentium one.. i will always luv you.. haha now i really sound like a freak.. ok dats all for now.. Assalamualaikum