Someday I will understand too..

Al-Fati'ah

To Hj Md NoorAzme's Father

Who Passed Away Last Tuesday

(12.09.05)

(Thankx to Peko aka Nuaro n Azamudin to inform me that)

Helo Everyone.. I just wana say Thank Q for reading..I just realized tonight that.. its not easy to say thank Q to sumone.. i found it hard for some people to say thank Q to me after i did to them aka helping them or seeing sumone to say Thank Q to my frens after wat my frens did to him/her.. Thats life.. We cant control the world.. People said "learn to forgive and to forget" sound easy.. for me I learned to forgive but i cant promise to forget.. Sweet memories is easy to remember.. Sad or bad memories aint so easy to forget.. People can easily say wat they can do.. but can they really do it?? All that glitter may not be gold.. That which look warm are often cold.. Theres a little answer for the whole bunch of question out there.. some questions remains with no answer.. Everyday is another adventure to descover the mystery of life..

This Year I learned to apreaciated my frens more than i used to.. KillerAngel, Leto, Zawaw, Minul n Salam.. i usually hangout with them nowadays.. Taking example of KillerAngel shes a great person.. she often kindly say thank Q everytime i send her an emoticon.. even one emoticon.. she wont forget to say Thank Q.. Zawawi.. sumtime he make me laugh.. every simple thing that i help for him.. like.. picking up his paper.. he will say thank Q.. sumtime i feel akward everytime he said thank Q he wont say it once but an avrage of minimum of two times saying thank Q.. To be honest with you guys.. im lucky to be his fren. Same with Leto, Minul n Salam.. they too like to say "Thank Q"

So many examples I want to give.. but im just scared i would make u people out there falls asleep lah! We made mistakes in our past.. Do we really learned from our mistakes? maybe.. maybe not.. Some people ask u to change.. but do we really need to change?? people said change for the better.. but people who tend to giv u the advise are the people who have the same negative atitude too.. sigh.. Thats why true frens wont ask you to change but they help you to improve your daily life.. You may critics or complain sumone.. but remember.. look yourself through the mirror.. before you critics on sumone.. KillerAngel used to say to me.. "Count 10 before you speak" thats mean you think before you talk lah!!

People change.. Our frens change *Dont be silly~ I dont mean the height or the hair colour or wat". Wat i mean is their atitude.. Sumtime i miss the person who he/she used to be. One reason why people cant stay frens is they change i mean we change.. last year or last month you were with him.. but now ur with sumone else.. im not saying general frens.. wat i mean is your close frens.. We used to be So close but now we are apart.. we choose to hang out with sumone else now is becoz we cant stand his/her atitude or we r just scared to get hurr again by them. Some people we forgive.. some people we dont.. "If you can forgive him.. why cant u forgive him or her.. " well its depend on wat he or she did to you.. small misunderstood are easy to forget n to forgive.. but big one you just need to do somthing hard for him/her to gain their forgivness. Next year each of us will have a new enviroment.. yeah.. sumone of us will go overseas hmm.. its look like we dont hav much time for each other like we used to .. our laugh, our cry, our work together is left behind in our past which become our history together.. Tomorow will not be the same as today.. Believe in Karma.. this life.. Believe in Fate.. Coz all of us will die too..

Some Frens are nice to you when they need you. but when they dont.. KabOonmm meletup!! dont expect nice from him/her. sometimes i do feel like a machine.. they only need me when they need my help? is it wrong..i used to think its wrong but now i dont thnk so.. yeah i do feel akward or sad bout it.. but i luv helping my frens sincerly.. i just hope they apreaciate wat i hav helped them.. I dun mind if they say thank Q or not.. but i wish they will say thank Q *im not asking*.. saying thank q to sumone can be a big different.. people attend to help you again when ever you say thank Q.

I wanted to to share more wit u guys.. but i feel so lazy to continue.. I hope you apreaciate ur frens more.. Its better to have a lot of close frens than one.. Dont expect anything from sumone. I used to expect alot from someone.. but in the end.. im the one who suffered. I used too care someone very much and hoped for a return.. but it never returned. I Used to love someone very much but now i dont know how to love anymore. Last but not least.. be urself and dont be a fake.. coz i really hate fake.. i may have a conversation with fake people again.. but trust me i dont beleive them anymore.. WalidFreak ia a gud actor too.. =) Lieing to sumone is a sin.. lieing to yourself is an idiot.. do want to be an idiot?? Speak the truth n dont be a fake.