Did you really care.. Care enough for me.. [Reflection-Mariah C. Glitter OST]

Hmm.. mcm selalu saja ku mempost.. hmm i guess so.. Well.. ini adalah satu cara saya untuk.. merehatkan minda saya.. selepas.. berjam jam.. membaca buku.. maklum periksa month.. Oh~ cut the crap.. Ok let see.. hmm.. my life? hmm so far so gud? maybe maybe not.. emm.. sumthing is missing in my life.. hmm apa ah? gf?? .. naah~ alum ku terpikir sal atu.. belajar dulu.. *hehe membual tu eh* but honestly.. theres sumthin that i wish and hoped to happen but i knoe.. its useless coz.. i knoe it wont happen haha apakan.. nada bah.. im missing sumthing in my life.. and its bugging me.. but to be frank with you guys.. i dont knoe wat is it..? hehe yeah i think im going crazy.. blame the exams!! my mind inda straight eh this past few days.. with Fadhli.. mengajar aku ter-nigga nigga terikut2an tah ku jua haha.. oh~ life at soas.. would'nt be perfect if Blackpanther nada haha.. hmm.. below are some Simple post

Monday 24th October 2005

No exam today.. but we went to school for group study or to discuss sumthin or cerita2ing sama kawan.. I revised my chesmistry rather than preparing for my biology pratical that morning.. but then Salam came and asked some questions to the bio peeps, so i decided to join them too.. well.. Gud thing Razy brought some past year papers {Bio paper 3} . So he teach me dilution thingi.. but then i wasnt worried that much bout my bio pratical, but during my last chem pratical.. i was really damn nervous.. bout it.. hmm why? dont knoe why.. so i continue reading my chemistry note.. oyeah talking bout chemistry.. i got my note back.. pangiz aka faiz accidently brought my notes. =) so i hav two chesmitry note lah.. gud thing its not same.. my 1st copy the option is Phase Equilibria and Tansition elements while the other copy that i recently photocopy from KillerAngel has the option Enviromental.. hmm Hamdi said.. Mental tu eh.. hmm naah~ no lah. i wont get angry to pangiz hehe.. his frendly guy wah~

While i was busy with my chemistry most of the boys were busy with their math.. after revising.. its time for social haha.. yeah we crack up a bit.. then i went outside heading toward the library to check out whos there.. Adui~ peko was there.. inda sound2 ia datang ah.. Waah Lawa baju nya.. baby purple.. lawa lah.. then went back to the ps room.. sampai sana.. i told everyone that lawa baju si peko.. haha.. out~ toing nada urang cam peduli lah.. Boring~ so sambung ceritalah..

Azrul came back from sumwhere he just went hehe *privacy wah* so when all the guys udah balik.. yg tingal aku, hamdi and mail.. we started cerita about "sumthin" well sumthing to do with azrul lah.. then si Peko datang.. *toing~ si mail pun kelawaan haha.. so mail and aku was busy guessing the price of peko's Shirt.. Toing atu mahal.. then lepas menyibuk sal baju tu.. {the picture above shows peko baju yalah his wearing it lah~} we continue discussing Azrul so-called "issue" haha

Theres one word he said that made us really laugh.. well also the way he said it lah.. its not like him wah.. the words doesnt rymes and the words are like tugang terbalik.. so we laughed lah.. si hamdi whos busy with his HP pun ketewa.. I cant really remember wat he said but he said sumthin bout saving a gurl. Quote from Azrul "Sebelum tergugur.. dari bridge ku selamat kan lah" we were like huh? apakan.. hamdi and mail was laughing loudly.. peko biasa ketewa macho.. mahal kali ah.. aku emm.. as usual ketewa like earthquake.. but he really make it nonsense wah.. we ask him to repeat wat he said.. he repeated the same word.. atu heng eh oleh nya.. it was funny lah.. but then azrul hav to answer phone call.. dari seseorang..

Peko, Mail, hamdi sama aku tingal untuk cerita.. so.. Aku lah random bercerita sal people that i chat with.. so random for each individual i chated.. and the style are alway same fpr that particular person.. for example.. hmm my cuzn.. everytime i chated with me.. its all about bio.. never changes.. emm.. dont want to exagerate eh

Tuesday, 25th October 2005

Today Bio pratical.. its was ok lah.. but then kusut ku jua lah.. hehe pelampau pintar.. haha suka ku.. hmm oyeah Killer angel.. Told us bout the new school muah.. jeles ku eh pre u baru tu.. Ngok benar.. And malam i chated with KillerAngel.. So she told me that.. SOAS technician.. Mrs. Ong Bee Ling will be leaving soon.. Lagi Ngok.. kesian eh.. shes nice.. muah muah~ Usually we see her time bio pratical.. hehe.. sal Dr. Azeez awal keluar ada claz.. so ia kena suruh Jaga.. since kami bising.. kena suruh diam oleh nya haha.. LoL.. kiddies benar.. Anyway kan tu bising ah ? Oyeah usually before kami keluar Bio Lab. mesti ia cakap.. Thank Q.. hehe rajin wah aku sama judeen and teh geng akhir keluar. well.. cam jobless lah lelaki nya memanyap kan.. everything.. Hmm i dont really knoe her that much.. but im sure going to miss her jua.. coz shes nice and frendly jua lah..

Killer send me some photo of the new school.. mikin ngok ku oleh gambar ah. lawa kali ah.. mcm antah mcm lawa lah.. catu lah~ by the time ku jadi cikgu di sana buruk tia.. emm will i be a teacher? think ku dulu lah..

Wednesday, 26th October 2005

Went to school saja.. belajar chemistry.. and membual arah si mail and si hamdi saja.. suka ku durang ah~ si toh ikut join jua.. so berpikir lah durang oleh ku.. hehe.. im gud~

Malam.. suka ku. kapai kapai ku minta tolong arah si amal hehe.. btw bagus jua lah.. dapat numbur telipun rumahnya.. dapat call bapa and mama mertua muah muah~ membual lagi~ Yalah.. as i said minta tolong arah Amal.. its sal Bio ah.. mcm tah ku pernah liat Pratical designing.. oh im loving my Sir right now~ So she ask me to call her.. suka ku eh.. its like 40% sal Bio Pratical and the other 60% bercerita.. suka ku~ oyeah.. OMG.. Personally. her voice melt me.. sikit saja jgn banyak.. lain bunyinya karang haha.. suka ku eh hot nie karang topic ah.. haha.. Just want to thanks Amal again.. for teaching me desingning ah.. well altho inda keluar but maybe i can use it in the future.. Oyeah suka ku si Amal ah ia baca blog ku hehehe and wats make me more happier is HE CALL MUSA PINKY!! how cute~

Thursday, 27th October 2005

Never too care.. but never care too little..
Morning it was great lepas maghrib kena ONG ku pulang oleh this sumone.. haha Mus Malang nasib ku.. ko inda jua kena ONG eh.. Shit~ salah.. Peko Style DAMN~ Well mus.. It wasnt a gud idea to kacau ia ah?? DAMN~ mana main tu.. ko inda kena marahi eh.. bukan marahi lah. just sakit hati.. before i cerita kan part atu.. ku ceritakan kamu wats yg best belaku tadi..

Morning Bio Pratical.. SHIT.. kenapa ia microsope tu kan.. mana walid suka tu. ai~ melukis tu.. suka berabis ku.. lawa lagi lukisan kanak kanak wah.. ~ oh well the was ok i hope.. but i was so smart to put Vacuole bukan pulang cytoplasm.. happy udah ku.. menyesal ku tanya si razy.. kenapa ia kusut.. sama mistake sal Vacuole ah.. DAMN~ tahu tah ku aku salah..

Peko wasnt in sgud condition tadi haha.. shit~ *wah i keep swearing eh* maklum mood swing..* sal his bio prac ah.. elah.. i should gav him some answer tadi hehe.. we fren like to share2 answer wah.. walid mana tamak.. not like sum people.. so stingy.. but sera said sumtime its better to be selfish.. sal to enjoy life.. haha suka ku eh budak tu.. wait shes older than me kah? oh nevermind hehe.. so peko nie decided to watch movie.. rasa buang stress.. hehe.. so join saja tia..

At PS room most of the boys beljar math.. fadhli sama aku lately mikin heng lah..~ palau wah i atu.. Nigga tah benar.. oyeah.. tadi si Peko jadi my mentor saja wah kan minta ajar supaya diam relax.. emm peace.. cam urang lain ah.. haha.. mcm ia lah.. seriously.. i CANT SHUT UP!! haha even for one minute.. excpet if im alone.. and i cant do nothing.. mesti ku inda teranah tu.. well.. oh well.. thats my unique.. but sumtim i do feel i want to be like sumone.. quiet teranah.. but then im ok with my life.. im cool with it. but i dont mind buat silence theraphy with my Mentor Peko again.. seriously will it work? walid diam ? hmm not a right combination haha.. oh well maybe when im mikin old.. like ada Gf kah, berbini kah im sure.. mikin tua mikin diam jua kali aku nie hehe..

Lepas berulah sama si fadhli k library ku sambung my chem revison. razy was wit opps cant remember.. tahtu ada si pinky... opps sorry musa.. masuk then si Pekoo.. *toing jadi k mall liat movie hehe* iski aku ah* yg ikut.. peko, Pinky.. opss mistake again musa, hamdi, mail and saya..

The mall.. liat wayang emm.. The tulang kunci.. well in english the Skeleton Key.. hehe bnyk tragedi yo.. sebelum liat movie and semasa liat movie and selepas liat movie.. nak tahu? sila lah baca lagi.. hehe

Well after buying our tickets.. masuk cinema then these romantic scene by the boys.. kami lah~ dalam cinema.. well.. ISKI!! lelaki nya.. testing Couple seat haha.. sekadar eh.. seorang2 tah imagine duduk siring fantasy Gurlfren haha.. eh guess wat? peko is learning eh.. hehe i hope u guys understand that.. I guess NOT!! oh well lepas atu aku turun ke bawah sekali depan sekali.. and found.. err apa nama scientific and english word tempat socket current nie.. yalah rioh lah ku.. i said dapat charging mobile..

Tahtu Si peko running down toward me.. and there i saw the first.. peko is just a normal.. guy ahaha.. wat the hell.. seriously.. he was like emm.. like that wah *sorry cant share with you guys wat i saw.. coz private sikit* ialah catu wah.. aku bangang nie wah.. wat he said tadi.. sekali sekala haha. but let just say he was so very happy.. its not like him hehe.. after ku tegur tu.. aduh~ kena hantam ku oleh nya.. well his a fan of wrestling so.. its normal. so jarih ku 4 5 secs katanya kan buang stress haha.. tahtu balas dendam ku ku kelitik ia haha.. palui dua dua bergulik arah lantai.. mati eh Kiddies eh.. well its fun thow.. btw im only SEVEnTEEEEEN wah haha.. trying to enjoy life while a still can hehe hmm dats why single to the miggle can be fun hehe

Then ada tia.. group of people masuk cinema tu ish kacau eh.. siok udah main main.. mcm we own the place.. so duduk tempat kami lah.. we r on the rigth side, Musa, Hamdi, Walid, Peko and Mail.. hehe.. Kiddies tengah tengah.. Giler im addicted to the words Pinky, Kiddies and the other word for callling Peko hehe.. opss~ nevermind.. so movie was on lah haha. suka ku eh meliat cerita.. Hantu or cerita yg memberi terkejut nie hehe.. we boys nie mcm gurls jua.. haha.. TERKEJUT HAHA.. but then peko said kalau sama bini2 paksa act emm wat he said ah.. Berani haha.. Palui.. 3-4 times kali ku berteriak haha.. haha terkejut ku eh inda ku ready mentally for that haha

Lepas tu sembahyang Zuhur.. Then jalan jalan.. cuci mata dulu.. ada tia this gurl mencari kasut.. kataku si amal. coz i knoe her spec wah.. then sombdy said urang STPRI.. daa~ obvios kali ah. Hijau haha.. then musa said. AMAL jua tu. haha giler eh.. tentang2 si amal for a few secnd.. well musa sama aku lah haha.. opps foget sal ada mamanya hehe.. then takut feel akward depan her mum jalan kami hehe.. then cari Cd then went to GreenCyber durang main CS.. then went home..

On da way balik rumah berulah lagi tu aku sama si musa ah. hehe. siapa dulu kan di antar hehe.. si Musa kena hantar awal ah.. hehe. rasa wah aku ah.. iski~

Hmm the sad part.. Musa and i.. well i planned dont blame mus.. ia agree saja.. tu kacau this guy wah.. dont want to reveal his name.. this is just for discussion.. well kami nie kan menanya ia lah.. coz ia inda invite kali jalan lah.. hehe.. saja.. but then.. kena ONG ku eh.. its ouch pulang. want to knoe wat he said..? i guess so..

?: "biar ku ckp cani lid lgi bisai"
?: "u expect evrytime kmi jln sungkai mesti bawa ko kah?"
?: "giv ppl some space lah lid"
WalidFreak:"oh dats how u say lah.. ok understand.."

The moral for people out there.. its better not to be rude.. even though theres nothing u can do bout it.. how simple and kind person always say.. "Sorry.. jumpa sumone tadi" or "Sorry, lain kali ku bawa ko" well.. at least you giv a reason or make up any x-cuses which doesnt hurt people feelings.. directly or indirectly.. or the gud way is.. by saying that can cheer him/her pulang.. Wats the point giving an x-cuse and in the same time hurting sumone.. hmm well i dont blame him. coz i knoe who i am too.. who does want to hang out with me too? annoying and noisy in the same time.. even razy said *the last time we went out* "Lid ko nie memalu kan eh" how i dont care wat people said about me but then how sad i felt when i think about it.. How imperfect and unnormal i am.. like you guys is my weakness.. how i wanted to be sumone that i cant be.. How i wish to learn silence from sumone but i cant do.. its all my weakness.. i wish i was like him him him.. but im just me me me. Atitude is hard to remove or change.. not like the cloth u change everyday.. sumtime i wish all the people can accept me and understand who i am.. but then in this world full of dreams.. some dream will just remain as a dream..

Wat make me sad.. is.. after wat had happend.. he send me home.. in the past.. i just cant see his sincerness.. ke ikhlasan nya tu.. "Giv sum people some space" did i really bother his life.. hmm cant really see it *garu garu kepala* hmm nevermind wat does he mean by space tu.. coz his not my driver.. and i still can counts how many times he send me back home so.. so giving him same space.. oh my god.. watever lah.. giv sum space.. kalau gf and bf paham ku lah..mesti bagi space.. hmm weird. im not that so attached to him.. think it over kan ketewa ku pulang eh.. hehe *Weird* naah *its FREAKY~* how much space he need? im not mad but sad..

hmm tak apalah.. maybe i deserve this.. i knoe who i am.. oyeah just ingat kan aku to say thankQ to peko again.. coz.. antah i just hope his really ok sending me home.. or im just menyusah kan my fren lagi.. oh how i wish i want to belike superman. Zoom terabang k sana anytime hehe.. can sumbody buy me pizza.. coz.. i really need want to cool me off.. daa karang lagi periksa Toing~

Btw any more person or any people want me to give them some space? anyone? anyone? just kindly ask me ok.. i wont mind.. for the better of yourself..

how frens can make you happy.. how frens can make you sad.. or even worst.. but then i question myself.. do i really deserve this? maybe.. maybe not~

But then chating with amal, Yush, Pinky.. eh pinky saja jua eh.. musa.. n sera it did cool me sikit.. thnkx guys.. hav a nice exam~

lame~

Thursday night.. really kick my ass lah.. hmm.. gee.. three people knoe bout this *including me lah..* And one of them is Azizi.. Cant really sleep last thursday and friday.. sigh~ sedih, marah, benci, and regret and bla bla lah.. hmm.. unfair eh.. But in the end i giv up.. Reason.. im scare to loose sumone *that bond and relationship sayang wah =) * and Azizi is killing me haha.. Unfair eh durang tagteam.. sigh.. oh now i cant get mad eh arah nya~ If azizi is reading this.. I hate You haha.. LoL Joking.. Actually i just want to thank zizi for wat he did to for both of us.. oh well wats past is past.. I wont get back to Frenster world pulang.. unless sumone buat kan untuk ku.. becoz it all started becoz of frenster.. hehe Weird right~

Friday went to kubur.. Yalah.. Membaca yassin for the pass away relatives.. never bring my big sister eh.. selahau.. kan bercali tah ia saja.. dont knoe wat happend to her.. and never bring little kids k kubur.. bising.. and my little2 sis lagi bisai.. complain nya.. "Batah jua" Toing~ cute eh~

Yesterday.. Peko aka nuaro chat sma aku lagi.. hmm... suka ku ia nie eh.. ia bawa aku jalan lagi.. awu saja tia hehe.. sungkai luar.. so i ask him to bring urang.. sorry not my job inviting urang haha.. beside that.. Sera invited me jua to this Sungkai orchid thingi. kesian ku ia ah balik balik msg aku.. hmm. sorry cant.. Mahal wah haha.. seriously.. aku malar jalan.. tuhur udah my money.. next time pilih yg cheap ah. gurantee datang ku.. i knoe.. shes there.. but musa aka Mr Pinky is there too.. im sure ill die di sana.. inda termakan tu karang.. LoL

5 oclock plus.. Peko sampai k rumah ku.. Dzul, Khaliu ada jua.. so we head to gadong.. mencari tempat nie. haha berulah wah aku ah.. baru tah pernah ku berulah nie.. hehe.. so akhir sekali.. Di Pizza hut.. then akhimulah pun datang.. Sasak ku eh si dzualami ah.. haha.. 1st minuman ku lawa.. Float Sprite.. ia milih untuk kami semua.. kami punya float Coklate.. atu nyaman tah karang!! I want vanila.. imagine.. Sprite + coklate lain rasa nya eh.. ai~ suka ku kan ia ah.. tahtu cool balik waiting for the arval of my pizza.. opps our pizza.. peko milih.. Meatlover.. then ok fine.. nyaman.. hehe..

We planned to buy a pizza lagi kan.. Dzul lagi milih.. he choose hotspot kali.. sumthin spot.. cam benar tah ni kami makan.. ATU pedas.. si khaliu bagi nya lada lagi haha.. giler kan menangis jua the 1st bite.. gile no laughing eh.. rasa kan menghantam si Dzul.. Peko inda sangup the last piece bagi nya ku hehe.. untung saja.. hehe.. pizza kali ah.. giler aku, peko and dzul.. heng sal video Pussycat doll ah.. giller lawa lah.. sexy hehe...

Then off cari Cd Toing biasa.. tahtu sembahyang Isha' and then Qadha magrib.. tahtu.. menungu si hanif.. hehe then we all ke mata2 kan ambil si mail.. atu.. lepas k rumah si mail.. atu durang sempit belakang.. haha nasib baik ku duduk di depan hehe.. paksa tah mengahantar si hanif balik k gadong, sebenarnya ia ada kereta wah hahaha..

Si Ismail sama si hanif keluar.. giler Trafic jam eh. atu spend like 15 min behind pizza hut gadong ah.. hmm so.. we were like so boring lah. two gurls miscall aku.. aku suka eh~ same time.. just 1sec away from the 1st gurl.. haha.. then cerita sama menyanyi cam sepalui.. oyeah.. on the way ke rumah si Mail ah. 1st time aku dengar si peko.. menyanyi.. wwuuuuuuu.. mahal yo.. si peko lagi cali lah.. cam bukan ia udah.. haha.. we r taking bout gurls wah and music.. lawa lah lagu lama.. nie.. belong to his dad... so we pasang lah cd nya. mana kan batah kali bertahan.. dalam kereta.. so the topic that intrested si peko was Angau.. haha.. time dengar lagu jiwang lah.. so he said apa angau nie kan.. in english ia mau haha.. atu inda tahu.. just balik balik saja cakap.. "Angau wah" "yalah angau" yatah.. antah kenapa si peko ah.. buang stress kali jua.. isaid kalau ada gurlfren nya dalam kereta cana tu sambil mendengar lagu anie.. or kalau ada gurlfren nya.. lagu apa pasang nya.... atu pigang nya bahu ku.. pikir nya aku gurlfren nya kali.. usul mua nya lagi tu haha.. kambang bulu ku eh hehe.. cala eh.. kenapa ia kan sejak sejak nie.. mikin heng lah.. sejak2 ku suruh ia mencari bini nie hehe.. terbuka kali hati nya udah kan mencari pasangan.... hehe dalam kereta ah.. aku sama si zulami lagi.. inda mau berenti.. kan berkelahi saja. haha reach bandar.. coffee bean lagi.. hmm.. durang semua datang.. well.. Shaf, Musa, Azizi, Khai, hamdi, Hanif, and mail, kami grand entrance lah, walid, peko, khailiu and dzul.. so there we chill chill.. giler eh.. addicted wah durang ah main.. davinci Code ah.. haha lol..

Sambil main atu.. kami liat ManU lawan Tot err.. inda hafal ejaan.. emm then we went home..

Cantik, Menarik, Tertarik, Kau Memang Da bomb~

Dear Frens, or whoever you are.. as long as u r human and reading this.. I welcome you to read my Blog.. This Heading for this post may sound happy or should i say.. Cute =) but unfortunately some heading are just heading.. Like a book.. u cant judge a book from its cover.. Oh well.. i just want to keep my blog alive.. and i hope somebody out there cares to read.. Well.. Someday insyaallah.. i'll close my blog too, just like i close down my frenster last Afternoon.. its a matter of time.. for people to move on and change. Some of my frens question me, why did i bother to delete my frenster.. seriously from the bottom of my broken heart *smile* i love my Friendster acount.. its the only website that keeps bugging my my head to visit it.. i still remember i created friendster oct 2003 and the 1st testi was given by Aida and the 2nd was Zachie.. both are from my previous school.. *SmSyab* but seriously because of testi too.. i made my mind to close my Frenster.. Some testi applies only for the past.. Sweet Testi from some frens just made me feel.. different.. Its a mix emotion.. like. ur sad then u miss sumthin.. coz it only apply for my past.. and it doesnt mean anything now.. well it does.. but then.. its for the past.. oh well no one cant really understand me.. i cant find a better way to explain it to you guys.. so i deleted my frenster.. 2 or 3 people will knoe the real reason.. but then.. WHO CARES!! =P

Life.. My life and like others are like adventure and everyday we decovered a new mysteries that we can learn from it.. Science, Everyday mathematics, Thinking skill.. name it.. its all around us.. but there is in life that we can study but we learn from our experience.. and one of them is feeling adn emotion.. One of your frens is in a bad situation, we tend to help them.. but then when we ourself are in the same situation you cant really help yourself.. someone are needed to help us.. If human are capable to be 100% independent.. Life may not be like this.. *smile* Sometimes.. i do feel like to die.. but religion thought me living is still worth than dieing.. What if human dont have a feelings? imagine that.. oh how silly. hehe i guess my mum and dad will not get married if they dont have feelings.. hehe *Smirk*

Sad.. The Word sad, lost cant really describe my situation right now.. i knoe.. why.. but its better to keep it by myself.. dont ask btw.. its funny.. when our attention is gud.. but people think differently.. The only person that can really understand you is yourself.. How i wish.. i really could understand my frens bla bla.. very well.. and how i wish.. My fren could understand me too.. there are three words which I still need to understand..The Lies,The Fake, and The hidden.. they are differents but the have same rule which is not telling the truth.. Its better to tell the truth.. and its better to knoe the truth.. but most of the truth just hurt us.. we cant accept it.. because we dont like it.. thats the simple reason i can say.. becouse "we dont like it"

Expect the unexpected.. Hoping for the nothing.. Life.. its just not perfect.. its applies to all of us.. We wanted something but you knoe.. you cant have it.. Seriously you guys would experience it too.. Expecting more from sumone and hoping for sumthin.. yes i do experience it.. and in the end.. me, myself and I will be the one who suffered from dissapointment.. Yeah i've been there.. and guess wat.. i cant escape from it.. and seriously.. it always happen.. Always happen.. sigh~

Life can be sad, but then it can also be happy.. did you notice all of them are temporary.. anger and hate is also temporary.. memories are meant to be forever.. but what happen if we forget about it.. will it still be called our memories.. I dont knoe.. but it should be called History.. hmm gud thing i dont like history.. *i hardly pass my history subject in my secondary school *smile*

How i wish what i want is already mine.. hehe tamak.. lol who would'nt want too.. hmm kind miss the past.. but should we really need to miss it.. is it worth of caring, is it worth of thinking.. hmm.. some people dont really appreaciate what we had given to him/her sigh.. some people DAMN cant really understand us.. simple rule, HINT and instruction is there.. antah.. They're not stupid but.. i dunno.. Just wait for mankind to create the word to decribe it.. OK

Im getting weaker and weaker... maybe i really need a rest.. what i really want is a very loooooooooooooooooong rest.. theres a word for it.. but i just dont want to used it... but when it happen please dont cry for me.. =) got it!! hehe yeah.. Ill just ask for two things from you guys.. Just pray for me.. and forgive me please..

I believe "whatever that happened, it happen for a reason" "Up and down its a part of lesson that we have to learn" Everyday and each day we learn new stuff in life, and along the journey we become more stronger and in the end im grateful for everything that happened {gud or Bad} theres no turning back in life.. oh~ how i wish i can travel through time.. haha just look forward for the future.. ok..

Last but not least i quote from my brother.. found it arah buku grauduation MS

"My Dear Friends life was never sweet nor was it bitter, believe people when they say its for the better, 'cause nothing now can bring those moments to stay forever, but do learn that from those experience you are one steps smarter (Modified of an original version) - Abdul Wafi Bin Misli

I love you.. i hope you love me too..

Let me write. and I let you guys read. ok

Oh im so demam today.. this past few days nie.. ada yg siok ada yg buat sakit hati ku lah.. Argh.. sakit hati ku eh i lost my chem book ah.. kurang asam eh.. baru jua ku photocopy.. siapa ambil tu ah! time ku kan exam.. wah.. cubatah lepas exam ia ambil urang tu ish ish.. Oh well its fate olready.. Semua ada hikmah nya~ ok let me begin my story.. Full of exageration and membual [Warning: expecially part si musa..]

Saturday, 15th October 2005

School

My mood today.. wasnt that hensem.. sumthin bugging me.. I hate lies.. fakes.. so if you want to try.. try it on me.. try lah. i wont hesitated to lie too. i will talk to a fake.. but im sorry.. i will also be a fake.. Simple rule.. in my life.. but dont worry the people yg ku sayang easy ku maafkan lah haha.. lol.. thank gudnees after hantaming azeem with toh.. release jua sikit stress ku.. oh well.. after studying bio d library.. Peko and musa lefted to take thier driving license.. Dalam PS ada urang main bola kotak.. calon2 nya ialah.. Razy from admirable co-operation, Fadhli from Blackpanther, Azrul from errr oyeah Muscle man co-operation.. and Akhimulah from Hikari8 co-operation.. Then Ismail.. abng mail asked me and Toh keluar haha bercertia tah kami dua tiga.. then comes Muiz.. ia pun join kami lah. so random topics kami ceritakan ah.. Dont worry yg halal saja.. HALAL tah karang!! 70% sal bini2 haha.. sweet~ We took some pictures siapa ku ulun ah.. si azeem jua haha..

Back to the PS room.. durang pun rehat.. sasak ku eh durang ah.. ku bagi nasihat awal2 durang jgn main bola.. time puasa.. inda merati eh pelakian nya.. ah.. si akhimulah.. exhausted eh.. si razy lagi lawa ada reaction happening arah mulut nya.. tahtu apanah.. aku pulng kena Ong~ [Ong= kena marahi] balik sal nasihat kan durang akhir.. emm.. aku nasihat durang sebelum ku keluar sama si mail.. hmm define ahkir.. razy? ia yg inda mau dengar cakap ku tu heheh Peko balik dari.. mengambil license nya.. tahtu continue our random cerita-ing with hamdi, peko, akhimulah and razy.. Si azrul and Fadhli.. durang ada business durang tersendiri.. then we all went home..

Afternoon..

I chated with peko.. majal ia nie eh.. ia kan sungkai di luar haha.. giler menyesal ku plan sama ia last month.. but then.. cam siok jua jalan sama ia nie.. sal aku jarang jua jalan sama ia.. so i agreed and ia msg bisdurang.. My dad wasnt at home lah.. peko msg me durang sampai udah and asked me aku d mana.. Toing i was still at home so.. i msg peko back.. im still fesyening d rumah.. so my vainity ku balik tia haha lol..

5 oclock.. my dad send me to the mall.. ala ala i msg them mana durang.. peko said Alan Saloon.. emmm.. mana Alan saloon nie?? ketera tah tu jarang jalan k mall ah.. hmm tungu tah tah nie reply si peko.. atu 2 min jua lah berdiri arah depan Mcdonald.. mcm Mascot lah hehe.. so he ask me to enter the mall lah.. cari ia.. *toing* di situlah aku nmpk si peko dengan si mail with his new look haha.. on the way to the food court *wuhoo food court*save duit ku lagi* mail been complaining bout his hair.. Ok wat.. mcm ala ala jepun juga~

The Food Court

kami tiga mengunjar makanan.. hmm.. pusing2 jua wah.. then si Hamdi Datang.. bekas dari surau.. so tingal seoarang saja nie lelaki nya.. bernama.. u want to knoe?.. Si pinky.. who is pinky? u still want to knoe.. Our only starrrrr.. Who is Star? Si musa ah.. majal jua eh.. Why i called him pinky.. coz.. tungu.. saya akan cerita kan.. karang.. ok.. sabar peminat musa di luar..

We beli the makanan udah.. then musa pun sampai.. inda jua berat ia tu.. lambat eh.. mesti dating tu~ haha yeah this part aku suka.. sebelum sungkai wah.. kami opps.. ok fine.. aku lah.. mostly nya.. meliat that tudung pink gurl.. kiut nyamu.. hehe Si mail lagi bisai.. he said she look like emm.. si errr hmmm aaa should i tell hmph.. jangan tah kali eh. ia tu macam err si pheweeet.. ok done.. when i look at her again.. in some angle.. woosh.. kan sama benar.. hehehe.. then the rest of the geng pun.. mengunjar perbiniaan.. peko the green shirt.. Shoot.. aku inda sempat liat.. boring~ membuyok eh.. makanan si musa pulng awal.. hehe tahtu sungkai.. bla bla..

Tahtu peko and aku kan.. mencuci mata and cuci tangan.. melintasing that gurl.. *Sniff*Sniff* hehe tahtu kan balik tah nie k meja kan 2nd round lah liat the gurl.. spoil tia.. durang tiga menuju arah kami nie wah.. {musa, mail, hamdi} Siok eh.. hidup single nie eh.. hehe Then we went to the surau.. to pray pray lah.. then shoping CD.. Pekokan beli Cd err game bola lah.. testing Cd game tah nie.. *Testing nie sepatutnya sekejap* ani batah yo durang testing ah..

So mail, hamdi sama aku keluar.. kan cari tempat duduk at last dapat.. Cerita cerita lah.. tahtu durang pun.. selesai udah di kedai tu.. durang pun arah kami.. so we took some pictures lah.. kenang kenangan.. peko.. sama musa dapat licesne.. LoL.. Then lepas atu sembahyang lagi.. Si musa gatal tangan nya ah.. time ku sembahyang.. ambil nya mobile ku.. mengacau eh.. rasa kan di silat wah ia tu.. Prap!! ko mus.. anak damit tu.. lepas tu ke kedai lagi muah muah.. kedai buka lah.. peko kan beli sumthin.. ada wah sal buku world book genius record nie.. awal awal aku kami empat meliat.. kecuali si peko.. tahtu.. kan gugurkan inda stable.. tahti di usai tah balik nie.. hehe time kali lari udah.. atu berbunyi ada barang gugur... rupanya.. si peko.. liat book world genius record ah.. atu ketewa tah ku pulang haha.. kalau urang lain inda jua ku ingau.. rupanya.. si peko.. haha.. paksa tah dengani ia usai.. *gigle*

2nd Destination

Yayasan Complex @ Bandar Seri Begawan.. si musa hebat yo.. Suka ku.. ia duduk front sit.. mcm.. Pehin Dato. Pinky. We were busy with our phone; chating. i was chating with my Unta, Razy and Azizi.. then si musa warn peko jgn turun to the basement parking.. hehe tak ada urang dengar pun.. haha.. Atu sesat haha arah parking sesat siok yo.. cala eh.. mcm main kreta di jerudong park wah.. but anie.. ramai persenger.. pusing yo.. ada tia kami salah.. mcm mission impossible lah. it only happen in the movie hehe.. masuk jalan one way.. salah yo.. atu praying eh.. supaya nada kereta masuk dulu.. kalau inda.. reverse driving eh.. Alhamdulilah.. nasib baik nada ada kereta masuk.. This is the 1st time peko parking di yayasan.. so kira handal udah lah.. parking time.. im lovin it.. haha kesian si peko oleh ku. panic ia oleh ku hehe.. si mail gigle dalam kereta si musa and hamdi.. jadi director parking haha.. lepas parking ketewa ku eh.. then we head to the sport section.. at Huo Ho...

Are you ready mus? The Pinky Story

Since musa and Peko is a sporty maniac.. so durang suka lah.. barang sport nie hahha.. Baju section.. ish si musa yo.. intrested in this pink baju wah.. well.. bukan apa jua. sal pink nie.. dari the mall kali ia sebut sal pink nie.. hmm ada makna kah? haha oh well since kami jahat kan.. kami naya lah.. lepas Nke section, tahtu adidas.. hmm not my fav.. i prefer Nike tahtu my Fav.. ManUTD section muah muah.. siapakan mau belikan barang hadiah si musa sini sja.. make sure kamu belikan aku jua ah.. oyeah.. anie pun si musa memilih baju pink.. atu ketewa ku hahadi pahami.. so since atu aku pangil ia Mr. Pinky..

The Coffee Bean, BSB (Peace sini)

Then we planned to watch ManU di Coffee Bean.. muah muah.. 20 min kali sebelum ManU belawan.. so kira2 kul 9 lebih lah.. so we order ourself minuman.. muah muah my fav. IceBlended Pure Vanilla.. tahtu cari tmpat duduk.. well. nasib baik this women urang putih pindah.. hehe then si Peko set up his Laptop.. Gosh giler!! the 1st model Acer Ferari kali.. hmm im not sure teh 1st.. well its Ferari 3000.. cool eh.. lawa lah.. hehe *buy for me please* the 1st game musa ambil is the word.. but then inda jadi.. tahtu ku ambil this game katanya nada bini2.. ish nyamal ku eh.. then kurek kurek game.. bukan kurek hidung eh.. aku terjumpa The Davinci Game.. Break the code.. so musa baca intruction so later kami main lah.. heng eh .. kami lima ah.. meliat ManU belawan inda berapa concentrate.. bla bla..

Guess who showed up.. hmmm there's a clue in the picture above.. Its Kocha!! Nizar wah.. so suprise ku jua lah.. so ia main jua lah.. guess wat.. ada one time all his err numbur inda urang dapat guess.. haha bagus.. then the coffee bean pun menghalau kami hehe menghalau nie wah.. sal durang kan tutup lah.. midnight udah.. so we decided to ke gadong balik..

Its time to go home

On the way ke gadong.. Rock eh si Peko ah.. salah jalan saja yo.. cam emm. untuk urang keluar jadi tempat nya masuk.. maklum nada kereta lain hahaha di gadong si peko nie inda tahu apakan di buat "dont knoe where to go.." so we decided to go home lah.. Peko send me home and Hamdi...

so its the end for that day

Monday, 17th October 2005

hmm the above picture aku gambar saja sal si peko and syukri. beribun saja ah Peko said kalau stress belajar.. mesti buang dulu baru sambung balik.. same as in exam kalau stress angan angan sekejap.. jgn batah eh.. inda cukup time karang.. Azli and razy belajar Math.. while im with my Bio.. Then Peko and kami {Azli/Razy/Walid} descided to sembahyang di jame.. before that we waited Musa to come 1st.. kesian ia ah.. inda jua jadi extra claz chem.. lepas musa datang.. k jame terus haha.. siok yo.. musa tahu jalan.. tahu benar eh. haha.. kan berpusing tah nie. tah rupnya.. the gate was in front saja ahaha.. cali eh.. susah peko pusing2.. then i saw mazda 6 both me and razy. said salah pilih warna.. agatah hijau. ish ish.. tak apalah suka hati urang punya kereta tu lah..

Berwudhu aka "Mangambil Air Sembahyang"
Si musa bisai yo.. buka air udah everything.. starting udah.. berwudhu.. tahtu baru ia ingat.. udah ia berwudhu.. haha cala eh iatu eh.. tahtu sembahyang.. si musa sama aku kena tegur.. ada wah dis guy.. his in his mid age kali.. tegur nay kami bermain kah tu.. with his senyum face.. *Scary eh* musa sama aku bukan bermain lah.. we are deciding siapa jadi imam.. well blame musa lah.. haha ia majal tolak2 aku hehe..

Akhirnya si Razy jadi imam.. awal 2 kami tiga saja jadi ma'mum then came four other people.. hehe.. gud gud.. then keluar and cerita sekejap.. meliat hujan turun.. si musa menaya aku sal this frens of our.. cant help it.. its feeling hehe tahtu turun tanga ada lagi.. lelaki ah.. tahtu cakap nya siapa jadi imam.. so musa told razy.. tahtu complain nya lagi.. salah tu.. ish kalau ku string wah.. inda berusul tu ia ah.. complain mcm ia perfect.. gigitan ku benar time atu.. si razy complain nya.. Wachaaa!! tahtu pasang kasut then head to Kiulap.. sal aku kan photocopy Buku KillerAngel aku minjam tadi pagi.. sal buku ku kena cakuk ah.." cakuk kena curi"

Jalaning di kiulap.. Browsing DVD.. Suka ku si musa ah.. inda mau denagar cakap urang muda wah.. short cut jadi long cut.. but gud thing jua lah.. singah arah netcom.. sempat tanya sal battry laptop si Peko.. then liat baju and kasut.. tahtu barutah arah kedai DVD ah.. wosh.. bnyk eh.. dulu aku k sana.. inda bnyk benar.. ani u cant see the people if they are in the other side wah.. habis kena papan oleh DVD..

Head back to school and belajar balik.. Toing.. guilty ku setengah tiang.. coz.. razy tingal file math nya.. i blocked his file time ku belajar my bio *tiong* but nasib baik ia singah balk mengambil.. sal esuk nya ia exam Math kali ah.. then at 2:30 my dad pick me up..

Yesterday, 18th October 2005
Skul
Sigh Math durang payah, i was revising my bio MCQ tahtu time durang balik.. nauzubilah eh.. bising nya.. Musa gave me CD Bio.. tahtu cerita tah kami.. then awal2 planing kan sahur di kedai.. but then since razy nore into sungkai di kedai. sungkai tah saja.. hmm.. serioulsy.. i didnt wanted to join.. sal kesian si peko ah.. ia bukan superman.. just imagine.. dari bengkurong ke bBengkurong, k sekurong pick up razy, tahtu k rimba ambil si Dzulalimi nd Adi tahtu k subok.. just imagine my place di kota batu lah.. sal Kg Subok nie not a famous jua kan.. tahtu i cant stop recieving razy msg.. makai Hp si peko.. majal suruh aku ikut.. mental ku di PS.. si zizi lagi hensam agatah katanya kalau ku inda ikut si razy kusut karang.. huh? wat do i hav to do with my present with razy.. tak apalah aku layan saja.. empat kali ku membual.. semua si razy reject.. last last mcm marah jua lah msg si razy tu.. ee.. wajib aku nie rupanya.. bagus2 tahtu si musa lagi.. maksa.. pRap ko Mus!! so datang tah ku jua.. alalaala

At home chat sekejap

Musa said inda jadi.. steambot.. haha.. arah Mr. Pizza haha my Day.. my pizza lol... woosh.. then peko ambil aku.. Boring~ eh.. now razy knoe my house nie wah.. mana main nie.. aku mau jua tahu rumahnya.. his wearing U2 shirt lagi.. sengaja wah!! argh.. shoudnt tell him eh awal2.. [Destination the mall] sampai the mall.. menuju k Mr. Pizza so sana lah kami tungu the others. guess wat.. the rugby geng pun datang wah!! mcm berjanji wah.. crazy things happen there.. well for example.. aku sama zulfadhli giant buat lagu for Mr. Pizza ah.. haha. nyanyi with no tune haha siok lah.. then aku turun sama si kochaa mengambil barang dalam keretanya.. well.. we walk slowly.. kenyang wah.. then back.. heng lah.. dont want to mention their names ad yg angau.. hheheh ada yg rindu.. ada yg happy go lucky.. for me im normal lah hehe..

Sembahyang.. hard decision for me.. sal i was wearing my seluar quater.. hmm. but nasib baik inda pendek benar lah.. hehe limpas lutut jua.. but sembahyang jua.. tahtu sembahyang Isha' atu aku sama si khai wah.. di belakang.. si khai talangkan mobile nya.. but ok gugur kebawah.. aku kan try jua.. iski kali.. but unfurtunatly.. pelanting ke depan.. marah si razy hehe.. mati eh.. mcm parent ku ia tu eh sejak2 nie.. suruh belajar.. ish.. cut cut.. oh well at least mail and musa ketawa haha cool kan durang tu hehe

Tahtu kami turun.. Si peko kan k Mcdonald.. ish ish.. i only like ais cream nya saja.. McFlurry kali.. yg lain.. NEXT!! Si musa si khai and si razy and si.. emm siapa lagi ah.. durang tu koko berry siring mcD ah.. aku sama si hamdi ke.. err.. ke kedai buku.. hehe.. lepas tu kami heading to Bandar Seri Begawan.. Kan bahapa tu nah.. kan main Davinci game ah.. Si musa ah.. Iski ah.. haha well. Me, Hamdi, Khai and Musa cawirr dalam kerita si Azizi. The rest Razy, Ismail, Adi, arah si Peko.. yuhoo kami awal sampai ke coffee bean..

Hamdi belanja aku Ice blended Pure Vanilla muah muah.. bla bla.. ok the geng divided into two groups yg main Davinci code, Azizi, Musa, Khai, Nizar *datang balik bekas berjalan*, hamdi, Spectator Peko [Nuaro] and Dzulaimi.. Mail, Adi, Razy and aku main Sayyidina.. but aku giv up.. coz aku stress bad mood.. so i quit awal.. Razy bad mood but.. heroin nya.. selamat kan ia lagi so his cool again.. so i blame razy sal ia maksa aku datang kalau inda aman hidup ku hehehe.. joking.. then.. kan main snake board game.. but inda menjadi.. but then.. main err.. yg kayu nie.. hmm Jennga kah namanya.. siok pulng.. hilang lah jua bad mood ku.. Si adi cali eh.. iski wah.. usulnya haha cawirr migang..tray.. oyeah the both above picture i took while kami main.. and model tangan tu tangan si Razy, yg migang tray tu si Adi.. oyeah si ismail depan ku.. yatah inda nmpk.. Sal abang mail nie.. lagi siok yo.. hilng iman nya.. malam ah.. untung.. ia punya siting place.. Gud view..??

Hari pun mikin tua.. so.. mata pun kan tidur.. the gud view kan balik wah.. so aku liat lah gud view tu lagi.. sasak eh.. si razy nie.. eeeeeee tegur nya saja ku.. im 17 wah.. ish.. ish angel from heaven.. si musa tu lain.. ia sasak kan aku saja sal aku muda haha.. lol iatah ia ucap aku hencing hahaha.. nada makna pun ia mengucap aku.. wuuuuuu si pinky tu benar..

sebagai penutup.. kami pun balik haha hehe.. ngalih ku wah kan exagerate lagi bah lain kali lagi hehe.. bah peace..

I dont like Missing "Sumthing" it make me rosak mood saja

Helo Guys.. Just Finished my Chem 3 and 5 exams which is both pratical exams.. Before cerita-ing that cerita.. Patik nak cerita dulu.. wat happen to the happening on Monday sampai today..

Monday 10.10.05

Hmm apa yg terjadi ah.. oh last day of normal skul life.. *Sob*Sob* It was ok lah.. I enter bio lesson.. which i didnt enter for two days udah.. due to inda sekulah *last Thursday*, akhir datang *last saturday* ish ish im not that pamalas boy lah.. ada kalanya kita tak dapat halang apa akan berlaku.. hehe.. oyeah i got a part time job in my Skul now.. but inda kena pay.. its like free service from WalidFreak.. Cali yo after PS period, Bio Period, Lepas atu Acouning.. I dont want to say their names.. Durang tiga nie bijak.. i was having a "really; rushing; quality; important last lesson" of acounting; then ada tia urang msg aku.. mcm emergency suone wanted me to be in the PS room.. so keluar tah ku dari tingkat dua k PS room.. datang k PS room this Three HENSEM GUY said to me " Lid set kan Turbo MSN, sama MMS ku" atu inside ku was burning wah mcm Johnny Storm "Fantastic Four" ah.. but antah becoz of puasa kali.. inda jua marah hehe.. so i help jua.. kan baik jua wah si walid nie hehe..

Chemistry Claz.. Hmm.. antah aku malar keluar claz.. without the permison of KillerAngel lagi.. 3 kali ku keluar.. sekali batah sal si Khai.. minta gambar kan ia sama kawan nya.. which is also my kawan jua LoL.. tahtu masuk klaz baru kenapatan oleh KillerAngel aku keluar without permission ah.. Dont worry.. She tegur saja.. She's nice kali.. but dalam hati ku takut pulang hehe.. I spend my time 1/3 revising Chem pratical for the next day *tuesday* and lebih nya cerita sama Shafiq Kassim, Dzulaimi and Azrul Hayat hehe random wah topic kami ah.. sal Bini2 time puasa lagi cool cool.. That time jua i was chating with Peko a.k.a Nuar and Razy *imagine online time Claz.. wat!! time KillerAngel claz lagi tu daring benar eh.. haha sekedar* Alhamdulilah Nuar and Musa.. *oh si musa yg kena sayangi ramai~* Pass their test kereta.. Si peko lagi cali.. udah tah ia kan bawa aku kan coffee Bean.. hehe.. paksa ku reply.. aku main main saja.. serius ia tu hehe.. maybe next time when Exam is clear.. but he realy wanted time puasa ini juga.. so will see lah..

Razy.. mengusut.. arah aku.. sal driving haha.. why oh why aku inda mau awal kan berlesen hehe cool cool.. will see lah.. aku ambil dulu or not.. I want to Fly jua insyaallah.. ke limbang kah k miri kah.. or Singapore kah hehe

Malam ani wasnt really peaeful for me.. Chat with razy sebelum baduk.. woried ku eh.. sal exam ah.. so.. last last adviced from razy.. Sembahyang Hajat ku eh.. hehe kebak2 jantung wah.. ish ish..

Tuesday 11.10.05

The 1st day of my Exam.. Pratical Chem ppr 5.. Wasnt really that gud lah.. im not that inteligent boy in chemistry kan.. so i just hope dat dapat D or C for my Pratical.. but antah eh.. terserah lah.. tak nak pikir lagi tentang itu.. Razy majal texting if i was ok.. haha lol. Chem kali ah. i will be always ok.. yg important i did my best kan.. that wat KillerAngel told me.. At least we did our best udah.. Pangiz was shift 2 so.. I had to wait for him coz kami kan k kiulap, ia minjam my Chem book yesterday i mean monday.. so ambil today.. While i was waiting for him.. Si ismail and and Toh.. brain wahs aku and teach me some driving tips.. manual lah.. auto mana main haha.. ish ish durang pulng iski suruh aku belesen wah.. Wats their intention ah.. hmm.. After pangiz selesai.. and ambil buku udah.. kami k The Mall online hehe.. yeah buang stress.. kami jadi kanak2 makai WebCam iski di kedai.. haha.. then searched for CD

Jewel In The palace

Giler!! "Jewel In The Palace" an korean drama.. well 1st i didnt recognise it. so i was like wow lawa jua bini2 nie.. [salah "MCM WoW lah" Jimbo trademark] then i notice pakaian her and everthing its just like the VodeoClip in my brother's computer which he downloaded it early this year.. it is a very sad videoClip.. i wont tell you coz tahu tia kamu the ending.. but the music and the women voice lawa benar.. gosh.. really love it.. but dont worry Kiss-becoz im a gurl is still my 1st fav since 2002.. my bro got a lot of videoclip for drama nie.. ada yg bida ada jua yg lawa lah.. yg ku kelewaan yg sedih saja haha.. btw anyone care to buy for me to buy the DVD for me.. hehe.. my bufday inda lagi lama nie.. 17.12.. *dui batah lagi~* MUSA TAKE NOTE ok.. boring eh ia inda mau lanja aku ah.. haha kan di paksa lagi tu.. I ask him to buy me Mazda 6.. cakap nya antah ko.. ku suruh ia menari.. mahu ia.. haha atu membual tia~

After that we went to kedai Famous lah di gadong "kedai Komunis".. hehe.. so i bought 2 dvds there.. saja btw durang sale tu.. murah yo.. We terjumpa Mr. Smith.. Toing~ haha k kemunis kali ia jua.. hehe

Wednesday 12.10 (Yesterday)

Sekulah sal sambung Bio Option topic.. 7:00 -8:00 bercerita.. mana ada ku mood tu.. kan belajar ah. baik ku membual arah bis si hamdi.. lagi siok.. 8:00-10:50 sesi soal jawab d soal half oleh si Azrul and Razy.. sebenar nya malas ku kan ku join wah.. i was reading my chem.. rosak system tu.. i was a bit malas kan tidur saja... but si razy pelampau baik kan.. aku kan tidur pun bangun kan nya.. oyeah sal evolution.. inda ku berapa confident.. most of their soalan sal revolution aku blank.. booh~ later revise ok.. i dont really like the topic coz its easy thats making me hard and its only Theory wah.. sal si Darwin tia.. so im just lazy to really invest some time understanding that topic.. but dont wory i'll revise it for my exam soon..

Biology Claz start at 10:50 hehehe which.. err fun jua lah. maklum Reproduction topic.. I dont knoe wats wrong with me and Dr Azeez that time hehe. Yellowish jua haha.. Dr azeez always say "What is this" with his unique ton.. while I go " What is what sir?" well bermain saja wah.. inner joke only hehe it was cool.. im 17teen wah.. mature udah tu.. mana ku hencing menipu tu si musa ah.. LoL.. Prap karang ko mus!! Lepas Bio klaz.. Aku, Si hamdi, Si ismail.. better known as Abang Mail and Nuaro.. Giler.. non stop durang ketewa.. Oyeah.. one of them baru ku nampak merah mukanya.. *tak boleh sebut namanya* U knoe wat?.. kesian aku nie wah.. sumtim.. kalau ku cakap.. mana urang berapa paham tu.. apatah lagi time chating.. well let just say my uniqueness lah.. not my cacatness.. but i really enjoy seeing them ketewa.. ada yg tutup muka.. ada badan nya bergerak k atas ke bawah.. ada yg ketewa control macho.. so choose lah oleh kamu.. three characteristic for three people.. oyeah aku bangang wah.. i was making a joke.. so i wasnt laughing lah.. durang yg kecalian.. its not selahau.. its normal..

Balik my dad bawa aku k supersave.. woosh.. i bought PIzza lagi.. suka ku eh bulan ramadhan nie.. bnyk usin bapa ku keluar belikan ku Pizza haha. lol then balik rumah.. bla bla.. maklum sekarang.. aku seorang saja anak nya hensem di rumah nie.. abang ku Dui~ LiLah~ haha nada ia d rumah nie. berlayar ia..hehe

Went Home.. Shafiq chat with aku sekejap.. Alhamdulilah ia sama Aimi Zawani lulus dalam peperiksaan driving motor ah.. hehe semua jua belesen ni.. aduh.. bila kah saya kan berlesen~

Today 13.10

Suka ku today.. i didnt really revise my chem last night.. sumthin bugging aku saja.. i will simpan 1st before aku luah kan lah.. wait for the correct time.. sabar peminat ok.. thats sumthin to do with my heading today.. early morning.. most of us guess yg temperature kan keluar.. for this paper3 so concentrate lah. sikit arah.. that topic.. before i enter for registration. suka bangat ku si musa ah.. SAYANG BENAR Ku kan ia ah.. buat ku kusut ia tu.. awu eh~ one word saja bulih ku kan lari dari ia haha.. sasak ku eh.. kan ku cangak ia tu eh.. he still win in skul.. and tadi aku jahat lagi arah si razy.. Razy is in the 2nd shift his going to sit at my old place when i was doing my pratical last June for my Ppr3, i told him that i mess up with my pratical, which a lot of mistakes i did.. that is 1) i got the wrong titration figure.. out berabis dari durang.. 2) inda terbuat calculation satu pun inda.. and 3) deduction of Qualatative analysis satu pun inda ku terbuat.. so i was scaring him sarcasticly lah.. main main saja hehe.. "thats why i got U for my Prac for my last june chem exam".

Time pratical kusut aku ah.. baru masuk complain lagi tu aku ah.. "Titration lagi" haha bising.. bla bla tahtu 2nd shift lagi..

I was waiting for them to finish wah.. iski ku.. sal i think ok wah ku buat this prac. AMIN.. Ismail was siring ku lah.. he ask me sumthing which i really dont want to answer. but since im creative and suka jualah membual lah.. sikit2 *i learned it from Toh* so antam saja tia ku jawab saja tia haha.. Tahtu ada si Razy.. wosh solo ia.. his mood inda berapa.. nampk kali ah.. dari muka.. im not psychic wah~ but since walidfreak.. majal jua.. so gtau nya tah jua arah ku. OMG!! inda ku caya wah.. let jus say.. wat i did in my june he did it the same thing too.. *masin jua mulut ku ah tadi pagi ah, main2 saja ku tu* exactly the mistakes ku buat wah in june.. its a bit weird.. same labotary, same place.. Same mistakes and same bufday hehe.. he was vry worried bout it and i was worried bout him... but dont worry.. he did great for his As last june.. his cool olready.. sal ia ada heroin mujuk ia.. hehe.. btw i really love lagu Mariah Carey-Hero.. nice wah~ wat did razy said.. "Ber curse wah tu tempat ah".. err si Bob aka Abdul Rahman was siting at his place before him.. Ok jua si bob buat tadi.. titration figure chun, calculation pun chun sikit.. and qualatative nya pun cun.. haha.. so my conclution "17.12 people dont buat practical at that place/table.. bercurse tu!!

The Invigilator from STPRI (luruskah tu ejaan ku "invigilator ah".. ntam saja tia eh janji kan sama bunyi nya..)

Just want to share with you guys.. I really like the invigilator "the women" from STPRI ah.. shes nice and frendly not becoz shes sexy or wat.. puasa nie walid hehe *Sniff*Sniff*.. we were lucky for her to be our invigilator.. My first pratical.. last tuesday.. i got to knoe her.. aku cakap sama ia lagi.. tadi pratical kami bising ah..i even talk to hafiz.. sorry not answer ah. disqualified karang. but the reagent penat ah.. terbalik.. nada label lagi tu.. haha i dont blame the technician lah.. sal its not easy to prepare a lot of stuff for so many candidates in one time.. we r not perfect.. we buat mistake juga.. back to the story tadi.. ialah bertanya lagi tu arah si hafiz.. mana satu NaOH etc haha.. lol.. inda lagi tercari Dilute Nitric Acid.. pusing2 ku wah menari.. arah lab ah.. ku tanya invigilator ia liat saja ku.. with her Bangang look arah ku.. siapa jua inda bangang.. pusing2 ku wah mencari nitric Acid ah.. then si Hafiz lagi tu besar membagitau ah. rupanya tengah2 arah sink.. haha siok eh tadi ah.. tahtu.. si hadi bising gigle2 sama partner nya hahaha. ada lagi tu bunyi pecah.. but inda pecah hehe it was fun lah.. i mean.. its exams but.. at least.. it siok hehe.. btw the invigilator even help me to clean my aparatus tadi sikit. kalau karang cam membuyuk tia aku.. kena tolong.. before that ia lambai aku haha sebelum keluar.. isnt that Cute.. oh shes nice eh.. May Allah bless her.. n hope to see her again eh.. can i have her number. LoL

Fadhli And Azrul

All About Musa *biar ko*

Tadi musa kesian wah.. jahat eh aku nie.. hati ku kesian kan ia. but fikiran ku suruh kacau ia.. ku bubut ia tadi haha.. imagine aku lampuh.. bubut urang sport.. inda masuk akal.. nasib baik ada si fadhli tag team sama aku... didnt mean to hurt him.. but i really want to hurt him haha.. dont worry.. musa is still alive and standing.. strong kali ah ia ah.. Starrrrr kali ah.. bulih~ sasak ku masih eh. he still buat ku kusut di sekulah.. hmm i cant find his weakness eh.. Prap!! ko mus..

Blue Skies membership Card

Sampai k rumah tadi.. kan masuk bilik. my dad ask me.. "Apa kan tu yg ko and si wafi dapat dari Blue Skies ah?" tahtu k bilik ku check surat ah.. hehe finaly got my Membership card dari 8.9.05 udah ku tungu tu hehe..

Peace guys.. semoga berjaya..

One, you’re like a dream come true

Two, just wanna be with you

Three, girl it’s plain to see

That you’re the only one for me and

Four, repeat steps one through three

Five, make you fall in love with me

If ever I believe my work is done

Then I’ll start back at one

- Back At One - Brian Mcnight

Now hush little baby don’t u cry

Everythings gonna be alright

Stiffen that upper lip up little lady

I told ya, daddy’s here to hold ya

Through the night

I know mommy’s not here right now and we don’t know why

We feel how we feel inside

It may seem a little crazy, pretty baby

But I promise, Mama’s gonna be alright

And if you ask me too,

Daddy’s gonna buy you a mocking bird

I’ma give you the world

I’ma buy a diamond ring for you

I’ma sing for you, I’ll do anything for u to see u smile

And if that mockingbird don’t sing and that ring don’t shine

I’ma break that birdy’s neck

I’ll go back to the Jeweler who sold it to ya

And make him eat every carat

Don’t fuck wit dat. haha

- Mockingbird - Emenim

Happy Ramadhan

Helo Guys hehe.. lama udah inda blog.. bnyk stuff kan ku share with you guys.. Sad, Weird and bla bla bla.. Start with last week lah.. It was on Wednesday jatuh nya Bulan Ramadhan.. Well selesa inda jadi.. To be honest with you guys.. err.. i really wanted Ramadhan will Start on Wednesday.. due to persoanl reason hehe.. Alhamdulilah.. Before i left skul on tuesday.. everything was settle and everything that is meant to be forgotten.. forgot dah~ Its gud to be back.. hehe.. Yeah i guess you guys is thinking.. apa si walid cakap kan nie kan.. Well antah aku mau type saja.. haha.. lol

On wednesday..Cuti bui.. suka ku eh.. wholeday baca chemistry notes hehe sampai acounting assignment ku pun inda ku terbuat.. so on last thursday planing akhir datang sekulah.. kul 8:40 habis acount lah.. but then time ku bangun kul 8, Judeen aka leto inda sekulah.. coz he was not feeling well.. so.. antah ah.. Malas hormone ku naik wah.. so inda tah ku sekulah.. So I Revised my Chem the whole day.. well apart from that online lah biasa..

Last saturday.. one of the day in 2005 that i will never forget.. Well.. thats the last day of Iqbal in skulU *My Acounting geng*.. well.. i was a bit shocked.. He was seposed to leave the skul early this year.. but he have recieved a notification that he will start working.. On monday.. err i mean yesterday.. Well.. Usually my Acounting Claz is full of humour, Laughters, Teasings, Foul words n we swear a lot haha.. but that day its a bit dull lah.. Even Mrs Trudy was not the usual her.. Everyone was serious.. I tried to break the silence.. unfortnately.. i can even do that too..

A liltle bit bout Iqbal his one of the mps yg jarang makai Tie.. but altho he dont like wearing tie.. *panas kali* his one of the rajin and give commitment to the mp's work.. While i was busy practising drama *during Teacher's day '04 n Orientation night '05* u hardly see him doing nothing.. he carries the chairs and desks.. he sweep the floor.. Iqbal is everywhere.. doing his job.. Maybe people dont see him as a busy MP like the top 10 Mps.. but i saw him as one of the best AJK MP in my batch.. Well he never complains

In My acounting claz.. his one of the smart ass in claz.. he beat me in my Qualifying hehe.. there are two groups in my Acounting claz.. the china acounting geng sebelah kiri.. and the malay acounting geng sebelah kanan.. why? the chinese are more faster learner haha.. so kami yg slow nie.. paksa dah berkumpul tempat lain.. easy for Mrs Trudy to give explaination hehe.. Every person in my acounting geng *the malay geng* has so-called important rolls* Like for example.. since the boys are shy to ask Mrs Trudy a questions, they will ask me to do it for them, For Tono.. his a bit humour guy... Mrs trudy cant Stand him.. His jokes always break Mrs Trudy Temper.. LoL For Iqbal.. Nauzubilah guy lah.. jarih the boys dalam kelas ah.. he teach us to swear n everything well in malay.. shouting sana sini.. apa jua Mrs trudy inda jua paham kan.. so thats his job.. making silly words and makes kami ketewa..

Yesterday was monday.. Iqbal tak ada dalam claz.. its a bit ODD.. no one was swearing lah.. a Huge boring eh.. yeah sumtin was missing.. Iqbal is missing.. Iqbal is the only guys who is serious when i ask him sumthin.. and we usualy spend discussing bout it.. some boys sana simply say antah.. and the other guys.. they will make craps joke about it.. well i dont mind.. coz its funny wah.. haha.. "Boring n Dull" are to words to describe my Acounting Claz now.

Continue wat had happened on Saturday.. Azizi Brought me to his house.. lepas tu.. errr.. Ambil musa.. Coz.. we are planing kan berbuka Puasa arah Gadong.. then k rumah si khai sekajap berkumpul 1st then we had to gadong..

On the way k gadong.. I was talking bout a car kereta idaman ku lah.. tahtu si zizi menampuk.. hehe told us that Razy pun sama.. i dont really trust people.. bnyk udah urang yg pandai membual nie.. termasuk aku.. so i said "Apih" with a tak percaya voice hehe.. n Zizi said Twin kali ah... terus tukar topic.. sal bini2.. si musa keep saying that Cute gurl'd name.. which make me kurang pahala argh~ Sampai k gadong.. i missed pronouce Buffet.. to "Ba-fit" durang ketewa.. and then durang lurus kan.. Tahtu si Razy datang ia salah pronounce.. Buffet to Bafit haha kali anie aku lurus kan.. Im a fast learner too.. Then i ask him sal kereta apa ia suka.. *Toing sama* unbelievable eh.. tahtu.. baju nya lagi U2 tu.. one of the brand ku suka.. Argh.. bnyk common nie can be sakit jua.. sal apanah.. inda tah ku unique lagi.. duh~ nasib baik aku lampuh ia kurus haha.. Yg paling important.. aku giler kan PIZZA ia coklat kali.. inda jua habis pizza d Brunei nie.. hehe

We decided to eat arah Ahan Thai Gadong.. guess wat "the common" alum habis lagi.. i was saying to my self wah.. or maybe i was saying to hamdi kali.. or who ever next to me.. time mengambil makanan.. front razy, back Hamdi.. samalah saja.. ada tia makanan full of bawang nie.. bercakap tah ku "Ai~ bnyk jua bawang" signal for inda suka makan bawang.. then si razy menampuk.. "sama tu eh" terus terberanti ku mengambil makanan wah~ in my mind... why oh why.. bnyk common~ then duduk arah meja..

Time duduk Musa is very nice and frendly to me, he keep teasing me by saying that name.. yeah ThAT NAME.. kalah ku eh.. oh how i wish Shafiq Kassim was there.. err kalau ia ada,. gurantee diam tu si musa haha.. inda berenti wah aku sama si musa nie.. dont wory i enjoyed it.. seorang2 inda mau mengalah.. The food was great.. in the end.. semua pun kepisan perutnya.. Tahtu liat Astro.. ada Trek Selebriti AF3 Brunei.. ada Big K.. wuhoo untung nya mukanya d TV..

Balik haha.. lagi siok. seorang2 kepisan.. zizi was sending aku sama musa ah.. INDA TERLERAT LAGI kami kan argue lagi haha.. lol full stomach yo.. so it was more aman lah then awal2 kan k gadong tadi.. zizi pun inda jua pening lah..

Sal monday lagi.. yesterday.. i really wanted to knoe where did razy bought the Shirt.. coz i only found one shop selling that brand.. so hafal udah lah warna nyanya for that brand, Dirty brown, Drity green, Blue, White, Black, n dirty Red.. thats the only coloured available for the shirt. *if u check my profile the picture where i wore green Shirt thats one of the brand lah *So i was bugging him to tell me d mana kedai ia beli ah.. ahkir nya gtau nya jua.. haha majal kali ah. tapi sayang.. kedai itu saya tak tahu lah.. d mana.. sia sia usaha ku majal haha.. then i told him the Shirt brand i like n the other brand i like.. and then he said.. "eh kenapa kan sama tu" mikin ku "Adui~" tambah lagi si azrul.. "Twin kali ah" atu dalam masa berapa minit. ku sebut kan tia yg ku inda common ah.. haha.. lol.. he likes sport im into music etc etc.. last last musa said aku berjahit ia inda.. haha.. LoL.. its true.. wah~ lega hati ku.. at least i feel unique back hehe thats wat important.. I gurantee you guys.. the common doesnt stop here.. more to come.. more "Adui~" to come too.. its just feel weird but its ok.. urang lain sama wat i lyke inda jua ku ingau benar hahaha.. maybe becoz we hav the same bufday tu kali.. Iatah kan.. selahau my mind nie wah.. tamak haha.. bah~ siapa suka pizza tu.. stay away from me.. or i kill you! haha obses sal pizza nie wah.. LoL. Pizaholic.. *inda bulih eh.. mcm alcoholic bunyi nya, haram tia~*

Bah atu saja dulu ngalih ku menaip nie hehe..

Things to remember:-

-Peko aka Nuaro berlesen udah.. waiting for clear date maklum exam time.. kan k coffeebean.. hangout.. sama sport err night kali namanya.. liat bola wah.. di kedai..

-Musa pun belesen but atu inda penting bagi kami.... hehe.. yang penting sekrang.. ia chating makai mobile saja ah.. every secnd evertiem wah~ hmm.. mesti kurek nie.. apa rahsia terpendam.. n how to tease musa back.. majal wah sebut nya nama that gurl ah.. hmm.. better buat plan later..

-Pangiz aka Faiz and Shaminul bufday inda lagi lama hehehe..

-hmmm.. got to study tomorow.. learn learn.. Oyeah getting back with razy.. best yo.. everytime ku online baru sekejap.. ada tia ia "udah ko revise lid?.." rosak mood yo.. terus.. beljar ku terus oleh nya.. syukur ku eh.. btw he sound like my parents now.. LoL

-Im Starting to miss my frens.. kawan ku sayang saja eh , yg kawan kawan tu jgn tah.. pening ku lagi mikir kan kehilangan durang tu.. Hmm.. I Gonna miss KillerAngel eh.. n Mrs Trudy.. errr bout Dr Azeez.. miss jua lah.. janji ada sikit haha. ikhlas tapi yo.. Famous Quote from Dr Azeez to me "Walid have U Pass up you pratical work" *walid buat giling giling saja*

- Toh and Ismail.. or better known now as Abang mail.. had ask me to ambil license kereta tah~ im still 17.. musa said masih hencing haha.. cool.. cool.. PRAAP~ ko karang mus.. *glamour nama si musa post anie.. biar eh*ia pelampau baik arah ku* ramai urang sekarang busy body sal si musa. hahaha booh mus~

-Mobile kami mikin cangih udah.. dapat online di mana saja kami berada.. even di jamban yo~

Enthalpy Change of Feeling n Emotion

Abdul Walid's Japanese Name Is...

Kiyoshi Anenokoji

Abdul Walid's French Name is:

Javier Belle-isle

- You just have to wait to be happy again.. Believe a better day tomorow

- When you knoe a lot of things its better to keep by yourself..

- Trust is expensive.. when its gone.. it hard to get it back..

- Someday we will understand why this things happened to us..

- Worth helping or not.. you can only see it after what is done..

- Truth can be usefull.. but sometimes it just make things complicated..

- If your exams is comming soon.. ur just wasting your time reading this.. go.. . go now.. go study~

Post for Today and Yesterday..

1st October 2005

My Brother 2nd left @ Brunei Hall

Ok... Above is the picture sended to me.. from my bro.. through msn.. haha penat.. wah~ time ia kan belayar.. baru tah kami add email kami.. well that the 1st time we chated.. and.. thats the 1st time.. my mum sat beside me.. time ku online.. Cute~

Chem Lab

Above: These Pictures was taken by KillerAngel.. During claz. oyeah in the middle.. its me.. jadi Mr. Cindrella.. naaah~ oyeah atu time last pratical.. this pictures.. hanya untuk kenangan.. tak ada makna kan show off arah kamu.. haha LoL

The Bijak Boys in SOAS

Above: Left: This Picture was taken time kami melawat.. o.. oo. emm inda ingat haha namanya.. lol.. err located at the Ministry of Health. antam saja tia.. Right: this picture was taken during prize presentation last wednesday.. 28/09/05 I lyke this pictures coz.. ada killerangel.. hahaha..

2nd October 2005

Tadi pagi awal ku terbagun kul errr... 7 kali.. so i decided.. errr.. usai my room lah.. *wah since my brother nada.. i can called it "MY ROOM" hehe.. I mean i wanted to change My brother's computer place arah lain.. so above pictures shows.. my brother's computer.. and how it look like now.. oyeah if you see the back of the C.P.U, the colour of the fans is Green and Purple light.. thats wat happen if you used ur computer so often.. the power box's fan loose its power.. err meaning.. inda lgi kuat wah.. kipas nya.. so my brother decided to replaced it with new fans.. its expensive to buy a new power box.. instead.. he just bought a new fan.. well its does look more nice and its cheap.. if you buy a new power box.. it might cost$40-90 depend on its power.. but if you buy one fan.. it cost only less than $8.. but.. for coloured light builed in.. it may cost $12-14 each.. well its still cheap kan kan.. err.. but u need to be an expert.. coz u need to gunting wire dalam.. and reconnect it with the new fan.. emm.. u need to open the power box.. which is very dangerous.. if mistakes happend, u may end up creating a small explosive in ur house.. hehe.. in the end... all the motherboard..emm to make it simple.. semua tia rosak~

Wat did i do lagi ah.. oyeah.. since my WebCam.. rosak.. i dunno its not working.. sometimes bla bla bla.. so I found this WebCam Camera.. it was given by my sister's boyfren.. to my sis..which sister... yg pelanting di brisbane sekarang.. but she didnt need it.. so ia tingal kan d brunei.. emm.. the cala is.. her bofren cant remember to giv the Cd driver.. *u need the driver to used it* and he forgot to giv the usb port.. its been a year already that the WebCam camera jadi perhiasan.. than tadi pagi.. i pulled out my brother's external modem.. cable and inserted to the camera.. and guess Wat!! it fits!! the next mission is to get the driver.. hmm.. well my brother got a webcam Camera too.. so in chance of luck.. i was hoping it would work too.. so i installed my bro's webcam camera Driver.. but unfotunately inda menjadi.. it didnt work.. inda sesuai driver ah.. but.. becoz of hope i surf the internet.. and wishing i could find the driver.. Alhamdulilah.. i found it and it work.. above and below pictures was taken using the camera.. errr.. inda terang~ its OLD.. antah berapa pixel nya.. but at least boleh jua lah jadi webcam..

Ive also installed an internal modem.. aku chat sekajap.. tahtu.. liat Bridging Mind. bukan apa liat bini2 yg lawa suaranya ah.. the boys go melting~ . KillerAngel Msg me that muka ku kena focus.. hehe. eseh man~

Oyeah above.. is just my personal drawer.. yu can find.. my hair gel.. talc powder, hadiah from Judeen, Alif, RBA, JTB, my Mp badge, Yassin book, and my Coins.

HaHa My Pizza yg kini dalam perut ku.. My Mum bought for me.. should i say special for me.. Last Friday kali hehe dont confuse.. i didnt ate it today.. i also ate it on that day lah.. saja post my nyaman pizza..

-There is in life.. u wish to control it.. but can't.. just like when u wanted to forget somthin.. but u cant..

-Peace but hurt -not the right combination.. Damai tapi sakit.. err..

-Forgive and Forget.. When the person majal and ikhlas.. hehe sounds cute.. "majal and ikhlas" Thats why we should be sincere giving forgiveness to sumone.. and is it worth to fogive.. Thats the reason why the past should be forgotten in order to forgive sincerly.

-Sometime when the time comes.. it will come.. Believe for a better day tomorrow.. but if tomorow turns out to be a bad day again.. believe lagi for a better day tomorow.. haha LoL

-Dear Frenster user.. read ur old testimonials from ur frens again.. im sure u will feel a sob feeling reading it.. becoz why? some testi are meant only for the past.. thats why its old..

-I hope i made a right choice.. for both of us.. & hope the history will not repeats..

-If the Pizza Hut manager ask me to do a project for them.. i wont make a new recipe for them.. instead i would create a new song for Pizza Hut's commercial advertisement on TV

-No matter what i do in the future.. i promise you this.. Janji Halal Keraja ku

-If i were to choose between my family and frens.. (true frens lah yg ku sayang).. i will choose both.. why? coz both are my family..

-If i were to choose an Western name.. hmm wat will it be.. i guess let the name choose me. haha heng eh..

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