tell me.. and i tell you

its time for me to be more selfish i guess, i have enough being me. when someone needs help, i donated 110% to consult and to help them with their issue, and i'll drop everything in my hand just to help them. But when it comes to me, when i need attention and help, i'm just a invisible guy. no one was there for me. they never did understand and never tried to help, unfurtunately they just like to type the haha, hehe and huhu which wasnt appropriate with the mood i have, i have to say, its so funkin' annoying men. i never ask for sumthin that anyone cant give, i never force people to give me want i want. But hey im just a human, i also need appreciation. Same thing goes in my past, i did try my best as fren to help, and sacrifice my time, they wake me up from my pleasure sleep, they stole my time when i wanted to watch my fav. show. but i didnt hesistated. and i tried my best to be there. Dear friend why do i still feel im not part of the group, why am i the last person to knoe, why is it when theres still a lot of seats and spaces then u'll call me or msg me for the invitation, why do i feel like im left behind, and why is it i didnt get sumthin from you while the rest has it. why did you forgot to buy me while the rest u remember? for what i done to you, i still can be easily forgetten? im still alive here my fren, and i have eyes and feeling what goes around me. ive tried my best to stay but i guess im just there when they need me. im not smart, rich, and i dont have talent, but i guess the only reason why they want me is i can be fool and i can be use when theres no want they can count on.. sincerly i did my best for what i had done with every single of you but i never feel the return. i sacrificed my self for you when you need it. but when you had your joy on the moon, i wasn invited and i wasnt there to enjoy it. the worst part is when i call for help, theres no one there to donate help. i rather be alone from now on, and be the outcast. now you have the reason why i didnt eye-contact you, the reason why u said im taiming and the reason for who i really am right now. every reaction has it own reason.. and now i cant be there anymore. take care.