Theres sorrow hidden beneath this smile

i feel so lonely.. haha apakan.. i feel so desperate to go to Uni, I hope i'll be accepted, damn i guess i'll be a teacher for the rest of my life.. its not that i dont like to be a teacher, but i wish i have a better option :D better paid hehe pandai membuat alasan :P i just found at that ive been rejected for my ITB, damn rosak plan kehidupan.. Theres only one left for me that is The I.E course @ UBD.. Im a bit paronaid bout my paid in the future, i keep thinking that my Sis and Bro will get high and more better salary then mine.. sigh.. ive been thinking bout this since last night with Leto, Angento and Hump.. eh inda siok eh cakap sal anie kusut lagi, jadi follow the flow ja lah.. oyeah how sad, i'll be alone in that course..

Last night i went out, and how nice of shaf to pick Farmbasket (kiulap) as our location, Salem, Toh was there too.. the food and drinks pricing is gud, but unfurtunately there was no socket n plug for our laptop to use and the music was so loud, that we hardly can hear us talk.. we left there soon and went to mamih.. bla bla ngalih ku kan bercerita dongeng nie. cut the crap!

Oyeah i was thinking bout my wishlist, mikin bnyk bui.. the only that i could cancel off is my laptop, im planning to buy a new 3G Nokia Phone, not sure what model; as long as its nokia smartphone its should be fine.. i'll try to buy it during my bufday lah.. bulan dua belas, or maybe the 1st month of next year, jeles ku bah my sis and bro got a new phone.. I want to buy a new specs, altho i dont like wearing it, i rather use contacts lens.. i want to get my own astro for my room eh, but i have to ask akhimulah where did his parent bought that Card doubler, i dont knoe what do you call it, its like using one astro card but can be used by two astro decorder. My Liverpool Jersey and CHelsea delay, abang ku belikan ku baju england lagi hehe sama seluar... I want to service my Air-con, its still ok tho, saja bah servicing.. hehe tambah gas. Oyeah i got a Baby water plant in my room :) finally.. its cute but not cute enough to be my girlfren. :P and giv me some love!! show me Love!! gee i feel so empty and alone.. i need to add some spice in my life.. and if i got accepted to UBD, im sure i'll take Spanish language :D. There you go my wishlist.. oyeah the rubbish dreams that i want to buy is a PDA mobile phone and all the ipod family hmm i should buy one small Ibook =) just for collection bah.. but im sure im going to buy an ipod..

I've been thinking too much about my future eh.. boring nada urang kan bagi semangat.. haha im not asking from you guys.. the girls bah its just that.. i feel so lame~ my destiny is so destiny eh.. ahha apakan, make sense kah? sometimes i do get jelous with some peeps, bininya lawa hehe lakinya so so lah.. i wish i was one of them :P sometime you think about the things that you dont have and u wish to have it, when you watch some romantic movies, you wish it could also happen to ur life. Its a fantasy u wish u could have and feel.. i have to say i had once twice dreamt about it, but sigh its not even close with my reality life.. lets hope for a miracle to happen n yeah beneath my smile, there's hidden sorrow.. but i still believe that someday a girl will look at me and accept for who i really am.. common im one of the guys who dont have a great looks bah :D cut the crap eh.. haha currently im addicted to Inxs-Hot Girls, Tatu-Show me love and Santana ft Sean paul n Joss stone - Cry Baby Cry, oyeah.. ada urang addicted to Agnes Monica - Tanpa kekasihku :P download di limewire bah ada tu :D -end-

I just went back from Keboys di Bunut, hanging out with my BOJ members, Tono n Big Pai work there, the best part being with them, our talks are always sily explicit, very open minded, Humour, etc, just like the old days during my aocunting claz.. the Chix worker there are so hot+sexy n frendly hehe.. i guess im going back there soon, just hanging out with tono ja bah.. btw tempat nya siring mamih lama, just go there lah..

Dont forget about the things you will loose and leave.. think for the people who love you and treat fairly for those who look after you.. appreciate for what you have right now..