Solitude

'Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind.' - Dr Seuss

for a second...

i felt the emptiness of life.. silence sorrround me.. oh well its call numb in solitude state LoL :D When one single thing change in our sorrounding, everything change. The day when most of my frens left UBD, is the day when i felt the most loneliness feelings i ever had. And right now.. i felt that im left out stranded alone on this planet. Not that i didnt make new frens, gee honestly i do made a lot frens in UBD, but then the sugar and the sweetness of the past taste better then now. Everytime i passes FOS, watching the bench, the pathway and the surrounding reminds me of everything i did there. Early morning, i used to be the 1st person to rest my ass on the bench and wait for the others to come. And I usually spend 30-45 mins talking with them, and it was a great moment in UBD. But now things change, i never sat my ass on the FOS bench, theres nothing for me to wait there, Everything is gone, what i mean is theres nobody for me to talk there anymore. I never forget how every morning at FOS used to be. Like some people say, we do not remember days; we remember moments.

What i have now..

Basically im alone in heart LOL, but my spirit is quite fair, i still can move on with my life with not so much things to complain about myself, i never really regrets why im here, so i guess it wonderful to be me :D hehe can u smell my sarcsm? nevermind.. things can work out better the next day. Oyeah thank Q to brustu, my life is not so quiet with them arounf the internet. Espeed do help my life out, its the fastest connection i could get lol, at least i could do webcaming with this babes on. Got this great new frens in my course and wonderful mates in my spanish Class, i wish we could be in the same class next semester. Oyeah i wont be having my so call vacation this december coz i have work to do, work? naah its more like a workshop set by MOE, testing this new so call programe Breeze, by one of the instructor from sinapore, high chance i'll be stuck in UBD, i wish we could go to another place like hmm any other place xcept UBD. It will be starting this 18 Dec to 12 January, Monday to Friday, 9:15 to 5pm.. fun huh? oh well hopefully i could get binefits from this workshop. and pray for FREE FOOD. hmm cant wait for my bufday.. ill be like celebrating it with my cuzn, or my frens @ belimbing coz i have to stay at their house, his parents is off to perform the Haj, so ill be there to watch EPL with them. Hopefully im not too tired after the workshop. or i wont be celbrating with BOJ, coz Tono and Aiman wont be there so i guess ill be celbrating my bufday with them next year. Thats should be fantastic. Forget to tell you this, after i finish my workshop, The 2nd semester will start, haha nice right, seriously no cuti for me this year. I hope i wont regret joining the workshop.. geee one month huh?

My Family

My Family is good, i guess... my sister is back from OZ, and im getting fat becoz of her, she brought a lot of these delicious Food, i mean choco biscuits, golden brownish nyummy sweet popcorn that u cant taste in brunei :D So im planning to go to brisbane next year.. hopefully i wont be busy that time.

Summary

I guess dats all for today post, I have to continue on my studies again lah~, im just nervous thats why im blogging, say gud luck to me coz i need it, LOL and to summarize my post today...

Im alone, i feel alone on these planet with out you guys. But no worries im living here like a prince whos trying to make everyday a special and an intresting day for myself :D, Slippping my mastercard and Visa cards is so fun!! I will always love you altho if i would never see you again, chat with or contact you :D oyeah i lost my mobile phone so dont try to miscall me, msg me, ill be having my mobile in 3-4 weeks waiting for my bro to send me the Mobile Phone :D

PS: I'll post some picture next time.. berjurit nyamu gmbar ku di laptop nie :D btw like the new looks i edit on my page?