sigh~ the feelings is repeating.. i guess my history will repeat again..

Adui~.. life hehe.. antah eh.. turun saham ku subuh nie~ i was like surfing subuh subuh.. kul 2+.. I was surfing2 UBD Official website lah.. yalah mencari requirment course for Business lah.. Toing.. antah lah selahau eh.. sigh~ the requirement for that course is stated below:-

21 - B. Business Administration with an option to transfer to BA in Accounting and Financial Management course at Sheffield University or other universities if qualified.
The two ‘A’ level passes must be either in Geography, History, Economics, Public Affairs, Mathematics, Accounting, Law, Sociology, Management of Business, English Literature or any science subjects at least grade C or better and at least a credit 6 in Mathematics at GCE ‘O’ level examination.

seriously it took me about 10min to get off from UBD web.. I keep reading that short paragraph.. sigh~ kusut eh.. nada lagi urang ku kan chat.. so cam sepalui lah kusut2 subuh2.. but nasib baik ada si online balik.. oyeah talking bout requirment business ah.. the part "and at least a credit 6 in Mathematics at GCE ‘O’ level examination." yalah.. i didnt full-filled that requirment.. I got D for my math D (2003) sigh~ yalah main main lah lagi.. tulahan jua wah arah Mr. Altaf.. *gauk ku masa di smsab, everytime math berulah tahtu bercerita, sometime mengusai contact lens lagi tu time ia mengajar mcm nada berguru wah.. sigh~ kids~ everytime math lagi tu..* oh well now i really regret lah.. i still remember when i get my o level result.. seeing my Math dapat D tu mcm.. no regret wah.. i was only worrying bout my english.. becoz i really need it to take Business, Acounting and Economic.. yeah i did tried to apply the three subject at MD toing~ TIGA2 subjects reject haha pasal apa tu nah sal i didnt full-filled the requirement which is having English JUST PASS. so the teacher told me i can only take chem, Bio, Geo, Art and BM. atu out~ oh well so i choose Bio, Chem N Geo.. 2 weeks later.. i didnt accepted at MD.. woosh mikin tah ku kepisan.. they ask me to get a letter at soasc.. Sayu hatiku yo the 1st time i step the gate of soas.. melintasing dewan.. look at black sign showing where the Admin is?

Got the letter, and return home.. seriously i was damn fuckin' crying yeah i still remember.. in this room, my room same room where im typing this right now.. cried for less then a min =) and that time only MSG from my frens.. oyeah Fifiey.. cant stop messaging me.. and i still remember her last msg was "Lid dont worry we will meet you di UBD nanti" seriously dat last msg from her ah bukan pulng bagi ku semangat dat time haha mikin tah ku menagis lol.. KIDs~ after dat i call Abd Rahman aka BOB telling him dat ill happy joining him at SOASC =) yeah but time calling tu berair mata eh.. hehe oyeah thnkx bob for cooling me off that time i still remember dat dude.. isnt dat sad guys.. sriously udah tah kena reject the three subjects yg ku hajati haha.. at that time i choose that subjects because i wanted to become a bank manager haha it was my dream and one of my dream was to get to University of Sheffield, UK sumwhere in Uk. its the same university where my uncle graduate dulu.. =) but i stopped angan angan dat ambition when i steped into soas.. so i have ambition lain lah..

My dream tu mcm HI Hi and Bye Bye.. but since nuar so called menyuruh aku ambil business i guess my dreams like.. comming back lah.. so terbuka hati tah ku balik.. ambil business sal time my Alevel udah sia sia pun.. and i knoe.. if i take Business insyallah kena hantar k University of Sheffield.. so I was like why not? it was my old dream too.. so i to myself tp gp for it.. its like 7o% becoz of my old dream and 30% becoz nuar presuade me..

but i guess its fate already i cant take business in my "one life" in this world.. I guess god have better plan for me.. it feel sedih to the max.. seeing that "at least 6 for math" i was like.. wow.. should i take math again? so many questions was bugging in my head.. the 2nd option was going to ITB and take HND in business and Adminstration and hopefully after that i'll continue my study at UBD.. but it will take me like 6 1/2 yrs instead of 4 yrs.

insyallah i'll take math again this june.. i havent asked my dad about maybe later or maybe tommorow.. haha talking bout math.. when i told my dad that i got D for my math, he was like.. inda percaya.. pikir nya ku main main lah.. even my brother n sis lah.. I showed my Olevel slip arah my dad.. BOOM!! kena marahi eh haha.. yalah time pmb bukan main distinction nya but o level. D eh just pass toing.. see how playfull i was.. would my dad give me a chance lagi kah if i would like to take my O LEVEL math D.. its been like 2 yrs i didnt study for math.. i knoe math is easy.. but antah shit happens.. im sure my dad will be suprise if i tell him this.. hmm i guess buku math o level dah hilang antah ke mana..di store kali.. but helo~ malas ku ingau. haha

I want to take math eh inda kira.. sigh~ if i can get a credit for my math this june inysallah.. dapat kena terima for the 2nd intake.. if not i guess i have to go for the 6yrs.. but then my parents want me to go to UNI just take watever course dat can accept me? sigh.. boring jua tu.. but i dont want my life to be like that.. My confident level is still great.. insyallah im sure ill get Credit for my math if i retake it again.. just like my Engilsh o level.. haha alhamdulilah~ got c 5 haha..

if you guys read it again.. it stated and at least got C for math O level.. i guess it is a MUST REQUIRMENT.. aiyo.. i apply it saja lah..

I still gona apply for it.. but i knoe the result will be same like when i took busness for my A level at MD dulu.. i wish miracle will happen lah.. i wish i can be accepted for taking busness at UBD..btw ada urang pernah dapat kah with unfull-filled requirment? i wish ada.. and it would be me... hehe

Sedih eh.. history is repeating. if only my life is like in the movies.. like they can sacrifice one year of their live to get wat they wish for.. HAHA lol.. i really wanted to get that course.. sigh~

btw if you guys not using ur math D O level book/Classwork etv.. i would really appreaciate if i can borrow it :) ok guys i think i have to go now.. doa kan for my a levels i hope ok result ku and pray for me to get into business course di UBD.. AMIN!! hope for miracle to happen :)